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I found your web site and even though I did not see her picture under any names, I did find several letters that were almost exactly the same as some I was receiving Kerry (USA)
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Anna Rak
(Barnaul, Russia) Letters: Hi my love John! This letter is from the almost lucky lady. Why is ''almost''? As today after my work I went to visas firm. I was told that my visa was ready at last, (I send you it's SCAN). I was most happy the person at that time. But this firm not only makes visas, it also reserve tickets. I decided to use their service again. I was told that the flight to Oakland costed 801.70 USD. It was too expensive for me, and I asked them to find the cheapest variant. And they offered. It would be on the 26-Apr. and cost 750.50 USD. I wondered if it was possible to reserve a ticket and to pay for it a part of the money this time and the other part later. But they refused and I was in despair. I asked them to help me so long that tears came to my eyes. And they agreed. I wasted all my money, but it wasn't enough. So I went to pawnshop and pawned silver and gold embellishments which I had from my mom. I got 150 USD and that was enough for initial payment. I have paid in whole 400.50 USD. It was my last money. The number of the flight on which I resevered the ticket is 8:50 am Depart Moscow (SVO)Arrive Oakland (OAK) 5:58 pm. It is very difficult for me to tell you about it. But I have done everything I can. I paid visa. I have bought the ticket on a train up to Moscow. I paid a part of the ticket. But this money is not enough. I don't want to burden you. I want to reach you with my own money but unfortunately I have failed. Now I have to pay the remaining part. It is only 350 USD. I must pay this money before April 14, Otherwise I will lose my money. If you love me, if you trust me and if you want to see me soon, please, send the money for the ticket before April 14, tomorrow morning. I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other. Any union without trust is impossible if it is a union of wife and husband or a union of boy-friend and girl-friend or a union of business partners. I don't want to be hypocritical. That's why I want to tell you following: I do not think that you would like to give the love to the woman whom you don't trust. So I am. It's a first check for us. And much depends upon it, may be everything. We must trust each other. That's why I was the first who made first step. Step to you. Of course if you don't want you can not help me. It is bad but not fatal. I will lose my money. IT IS TOO BAD BUT NOT TOO FATAL . I speak so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when we are divided only with one step, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will be gone. I love you and I want to be with you and the word of honour, your help is necessary for me. I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger. It is much easier to go through difficulties and barrier together. I want to present you all my infinite love and fidelity. I did not want to ask you. I thought, that I can make all itself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without the help, and to rely only on myself. I very seldom address to somebody for the help, but now I ask you to help me. I have made a step forward. Make also you a steptowards to me. I hope that has not offended you. I love you and I trust. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step. Tell me John, can you help me? If you have an opportunity please help me. I wonder how it is possible to do. There is an International Western Union (by the way, they have a website, called www.westernunion.com). You may send me money using Western Union according following data: Russia. BARNAUL. STROITELEI PROSPEKT, 4B ALFA BANK , 656002 For Anna Rak. To get the money, I should tell the employee of bank your full name, full address, exact amount and some confidential numbers (Money Transfer Control Number), which will be given to you, when you send the money. I love you very much! I think about you John every time. Forever yours Anna. Anna Rak
(Barnaul, Russia) Letters: Hi Ken, how are you?(English) Zdravstvuy Ken, kak dela?(Russia) I'm very glad that I receive the new letter from you! Your letters brings the happiness to me and good mood. Last night, when I cook a supper. I have casually thought, " and what you do during this moment? " During the moment meditations about you, it became easy and pleasant for my soul. I wanted to treat you, my breakfast. I already wrote to you. I have learned to prepare, when I was absolutely young. I very much like to cook. If I had no my profession, then I probably would be the cook. I know many recipes of dishes. I like tasty and healthy food. It is very important for me because I very much keep up my figure(body). And it's reason, that I should refuse many kind of food. Especially I love various salads and products of the sea. Have you sometime tried a fish in the dough? It is a fillet of the fish, baked in the dough. It is very tasty. Also I like very much a fried flounder. Only the flounder has surprising and unique taste. I do not know, if you in the USA have a soup named uha(fish soup). Have you heard sometime about uha? More often it prepares at the nature, picnics or camping. For this purpose you take recently caught fish, lie it down to the boiler. Then you should add the potato, onions, carrots and spices is added too. You necessarily should prepare it on a campfire. When it is ready, fish filed separately of soup. It has surprising taste. I spend much time on kitchen. I like to think out new dishes, to make experiments. I have cooked the goose royally(on-tsarist) for my last birthday. For this purpose you take the young goose. Inside of the goose you place a stuffing of the apples and spices and accurately close an hole. Then the goose should be placed to the oven. When goose is fried, it is impregnated from within with a smell of apples and spices. It should be filed to the table together with verdure and fruits. The goose is in the middle of a frying pan entirely and should not be cut on a part. It's the basis of this dish. I like usually Russian foods - pel'menis, Borshch, soups, and pancakes. But Ialso love the Chinese foodstuffs and cuisine of the Russian Georgia.Breakfast - coffee and a sandwich with cheese.Dinner - soup, a fried potato and meat goulash, salad from fresh vegetables. A supper - vermicelli with fried fish, tea. Probably, sometime I can cook for you. You would like it?Ken what food you like? Good night Ken. (English) Spokoinoi nochi Ken. (Russia) Anna. P.S. This picture has been taken, this winter not far from mine villages. All my pictures are taken by my friend Sveta. Hi my dear and the distant friend Ken! Zdravstvuy, moy dorogoy i dalekiy drug Ken! The only thing she lacks is simple warm and caress. This is the problem of Russian men. The Russian lady does everything for the man but she doesn't get anything from him. All she needs is at least a couple of tender words and touching of his hands. Isn't it so difficult? I think it isn't difficult to present your lady a romantic evening and a supper with candles, but in Russia as a rule a woman makes such a present but not a man. When a woman carries heavy bags in the street, no man will help her, he will only turn his look away and go farther. That's why the Russian ady never feels happy at her heart. You s y that I am beautiful. In Russia I am not considered like a beautiful lady, Russian men usually treat ladies disrespectfully. They consider that woman only have to work, cook, wash up and entertain the man when he wants. To offend a woman is a usual thing for the Russian man. I like to cook and wash up but sometimes I would like to get simple caress, love and attention. I don't want to offend all the men, there are good men but there are few of them. Yes, a long time I loved a young man. We had good time together. He was kind. But he liked to drink. When he was drunk he became an absolutely other person. He talked badly with me. Later his love to alcohol became a habit. He became rude and evil. He even beat me several times and next day he smiled and talked with me as if nothing happened to. I began to be afraid of him and I must leave him. My soul was wounded very much. After this I couldn't make to get acquainted with another man. Now I don't trust Russian men. I am afraid to give my love to somebody and to get rudeness back. I shall close this theme as it is not pleasant to me. I must finish my letter. I don't want but I have to. I want to ask you what makes you happy Ken? What was the best gift that you got from a woman? Sincerely yours and with best wishes. I am shy, but I kiss you hotly, my Ken. P.S. This picture has been taken the last summer on the river Ob. Hi, my dear friend Ken I waited for this minute with impatience to answer you. My birthday on March, 23. Your letters have become so close to my heart that I am glad to them like a baby. you write so beautiful letteres, I have never heard such words in Russia. I think that Russian men don't know such words at all. Your words are so pleasant that I feel myself on the heavens. Please, write me every day at least two words, then I will know that everything is OK. I will be calm for you and won't worry. Yesterday I talked with my boss, I asked him to use Internet at least 10-15 minutes a day. He promised to think about it. I cant let him deprive me my private live how much it cost me. The dearest I have is you Ken I understood it clearly yesterday when I was walking in the park and thinking about you. I was tired and sat down on the bench. I closed my eyes and thought about you. A wind was blowing, it scutched my hairs and enveloped my body by its chilly freshness. I don't know why, but I thought that you changed in wind, and you tenderly touched my hairs with you i nvisible hands. It seemed to me that I am situated somewhere there with you. And my heart began beating as never before. I was so pleasant that I was ready to yell from happiness. People who were passing near me probably thought that I am crazy wnen they saw me sitting on the bench with closed eye and smiling. But I didn't think about their opinion. I not for a long time sat, it was very cold. But I so would not like to leave. I consider that all peple in love are a little mad. Love is such intoxicating narcotic, which makes do mad, but sometimes funny actions. Only person in love can fill the whole bath with champaign, only person in love can present the million of scarlet roses or stand whole night under balcony of the loved woman singing serenades. Answer me one question. You the quick-tempered person? May be today after work I will go home by foot. I like to walk along the street and to breath fresh air, especially when the weather is warm. As a matter of fact I don't want to go home. It is very boring and lonely at home. Sometimes I don't mention it, but sometimes when I come home with good mood, I want to talk very much, to share thoughts with anybody, to have fun. But my flat is empty and I have to be in full solitude. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit down in an arm-chair and look at the window. And when the silence deafen me when I hear as My blood flows in my veins, I hear movement of my eyelashes, at that moment becomes unbearably and my heart compresses. I don't know how to struggle with it. I can listen to music or read a book. But in some moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning, to speak about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I don't want to cook meals only for myself. I want somebody to appreciate it. But enough about it.I should finish the letter. I having not enough time. Hi Ken, again. I began writing the letter in the morning. Now it is 5 p. m. already. Can you imagine? I have just cured a little boy's teeth. I asked him: What do you dream about? He answered that he dreams tobecome a grownup because grownups don't have problems with teeth. It was so funny. I often remember childhood. I always dreamed to become a grown up as soon as possible. As every child I completely believed that grownups don't have problems at all. I dreamt in the childhood and I dream now. Of course, the world of dreams is an illusive world. We live in a real life, so we can't to sink into the world of dreams and phantasies for long. When a dream becomes obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Practically dreams do not always realize. It happens that you use all power, all aspiration to make the dream come true. But as much you try, not all in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does not come true, as though you did not try, dream ceases to be that star, which was for you lighthouse in ocean of the life, which illuminated your way. But anyway, I think that it is impossible to live without dreames and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. The dreams are those things that do us people that distinguishes us from the whole rest alive world. The dreams contribute variety in ordinary and grey life. The dreams force to think, analyse, choose and come to a conclusion. The Faith and Hope - an eternal satellites of our lifes. And regardless of what waits you at the end, joy of the victories and subordinated tops we remember better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. You agree with me?I am surprised that I write you all this. I have never had a person, with whom I could share my thoughts. But now I have found you, and I am very glad. Forgive me for my frankness. If I said something superfluous forgive me please. Do you like when your friends come to your home? What clothes do you like the lady wear? I will wait for your letter with impatience. I already spoke you, that I very much like to be photographed. I would want that you, have correctly understood my hotos. Do not think that I trite. I very passionate woman. I love sexuality in a picture, and in all. I a think it should be present everywhere. You will laugh probably but I am not skilled in sex. Because I was engaged in sex a little. reason of it, there is my loneliness. Kisses, Anna. Celuyu, Anna. Hi, my far, but dear friend Ken. Many thanks for your letter. It was the long-awaited letter. I am really madly glad to receive your letter. I am really glad that I have found you. Thanks for a congratulation. I should tell to you that I have ocean of emotions and sensationswhich I had no in my heart before. And on this, my reason and my heart say me that I should answer by sincerity your constant sincerity. My heart and my reason says me that I should tell what I feel now because it is a part of our friendship and I should share it with you. I should tell that it was required two days to write and think over this letter, because I wanted to say just the right things to you. I didn't want to offend or upset you in anyway, and it really bothered me that saying something wrong may do that. I normally speak directly from my heart, and I am right now, but sometimes, words must be carefully chosen. I feel somewhat lost when I have no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my soul, I feel contentment and joy when I think of you. I have never done this in my life, (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world), and I might have much to learn about how to proceed, but I am more than willing to learn whatever it takes to succeed if that is your desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends possible, which trust and share with each other everything that they feel. I do not know if my word and thoughts make sense to you, and I try very hard to put them in typed words that you will feel and understand. I believe in God, and I believe that I have been put through trials to prepare me for meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of my life loving, to better appreciate him, respect him and cherish the love, that he would give; only asking that I return the same. I hope that my words and letters are not boring to you, but they are much more than mere words, they are my thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you. I very much desire that you find it in your heart and are comfortable with sharing your personal feelings with me, I wish to know you on a more intimate level, I would like you to share your dreams, your hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with you on a level that goes way beyond mere friendship. Please do not think me foolish for thinking these things, I believe that in order for anything to succeed, you have to be honest, and that is what I am doing with you. Could you close your eyes for just a minute, and think and dream of what a life we could share, what it would be like, the fun of learning each other. I really believe that dreams do come true for people which dare to believe in dreams, because if they believe in them hard enough, dreams could become in reality. I guess that you are shocked that I feel this way, but here, where I was raised, the gift of true love from a man is something that is more similar to a Mirage or self-deception, rather than mutual feeling which two enamored people can give each other. I hope that I am not rambling on with my words. I have so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say, and I always feel that I have forgotten something important that I wanted to share with you. Ken, when I speak of you and I think of you, it does not matter for me what anyone else thinks. I want to tell that you are very beautiful for me. I mean, I find that you are not only attractive as a man, I also speak of the beauty that is within you, beauty of your internal world, and alas, this particular type of beauty is very special and rare. Most men have only appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty is. This, is that for me is the most important and significant in all limits of my character, my soul and my consciousness. Your words spoken to me with so much kindness and care, they express the beauty within you. I think that you are truly handsome, the essence of what beauty should be, and there is nothing that anyone could say to me that would compel to change my mind even a little bit. I want to reduce essence of all my letter only to one thought. I do not know if I could clearly explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want to tell that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy our friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough for simple friendship. It is that way which I feel. As always I hope that my letter finds you in good health and spirits, and I hope that every yours wish you have comes true one day. I will look forward to your reply as always with anticipation and impatience.... With tenderness, Anna. Hi my heart and my soul Ken! I have a friend Ken, and I always think of him, I want to know all about him. Absolutely all! (Smile). Tell me about your thoughts and dreams. And now I'll do it. Yesterday my boss informed me that I would have a vacation approximately in 2-3 weeks, but I wasn't pleased. I didn't expect that I would receive a vacation. But schedule, that constituted by boss canÒt be change. I have begun to cry, because it means that I can't write to you, I can't use a computer. I was so frightened that I can lose you. I imagined that I should spend this vacation in my apartment, between four walls. I should it in loneliness and think of you. I should aimlessly wander on streets and fall asleep with tears on eyes every night. I have been waiting for my vacation during long 3 years and now I receive them but they don't bring pleasure to me. I imagined that I should spend some weeks without you and awful emptiness ad appeared in my heart. All world around became uninteresting for me and I told myself:" NO! It is not for me!" Last night I thought of us. About you and about me-about us together. I couldn't fall asleep. I had been crying for a long time because of despair. My thoughts were mixed, like inking waves during a storm, and I, like a small ship was sank in the sea of despair. With the rising of un I calmed and hold on myself. And I have put a hard aim, the aim of all my life-to be with a man who loves me and I love him by all my heart. I thought what I can do to see you. I decided to spend this vacation with you. I thought what I can do to meet you. Simply to meet. That's all what I want now. I have passport, and also I need an American visa. Today I have addressed in firm where the visas are made. I wondered how much it ould cost for me. They told me that this service would cost 335 USD. I said it was very big money, and visa couldn't be cost so much. They told that I could make all directly in Moscow where an American consulate was. But I have considered that if I shall make directly in Moscow, I will squander more money. The way to Moscow and back also residing there will cost much. I shall squander more money than 335 USD if I go there. Besides if my application isn't approved, it will turn out that I squander all money for nothing. I have been explained that it will be necessary to visit set of various departments, state and medical institutions both in Barnaul, and in Moscow. I must wait for a long time the queue.. This agency allows to avoid many problems and to make all for faster term. I asked how long it would take to make the visa. I was answered that it would take about a week or may be 2 if there were some troubles because of the terrible terrorist acts in USA and the conflict with Iraq. And in this agency I was told, that they need information about me from the police. If I am a law-abiding citizen, I shall get the visa. I have never outraged the law. And I have never done anything unlawful. I shall have preparation for interview. It will help me to receive the visa. I understand that our relations are not long yet, but I trust you. And I very hope so you are, as I love you. Many years I ask myself a question:Ò Why everything depends on money? I think that the money is not main thing in life. The main is when the people can and want to understand each other. I have some savings. And I think thatÒll be enough to come to you, my sweetheart. Thanks for a picture. Very pleasantly. You have a nice face and beautiful eyes. However, if you will send to me more your pictures with more high quality, I will be glad even more. I with you shall be fair. I do not love lie. I have read yours profile. I have written to you. I thought you to me will not answer. I thought if you will not answer. I shall write once again to you. (Smile) you have answered me. I was glad. From the very beginning I write only you. Your letters for me air. At me is not present more whom. If somebody has written to me. I have not answered it. I can not open the soul to various people. I can like only one person. I open the heart to you. I think you will not use it my weakness and will not deceive me. Our love will overcome any distances. Live for LOVE! When you Love, do it with all your might, all your Devotion and for all eternity! I really think it's better to love and fail and not having fallen in love at all. Since I started talking to you, I just can't stop thinking of you Ken. YA CELUYU TEBYA. In English. I KISS YOU. Privet moya lyubov. (Russia) Hi my love. (English) How are you, my love Ken? When I see your letter, my heart is similar to a bird in a cage. Wants to depart a breast and to fly to you. I never experience before similar. My height is 168 cm (5 feet 6 inches) I want to tell a history which I had yesterday. I have the big soft toy, The gnome. It is my unique and the toy is favourite. I very much love her. This toy at me 2 years. And all this time I as could not think up a name for her. I tried many names. I do not know why, but any name was not pleasant to me. But yesterday when I went to bed as usually I have put her near to me. I have looked at her and have casually made your name Ken. It has very much approached The gnome. Now I call him Ken and constantly I think of you. I'm missing you. When I go to bed I'm thinking about you. I'm thinking about your letters. I think how it's good that I have met you in the Internet. If I was told before, that I will meet my love in the Internet, I would not believe this man. I would think, that this man is crazy or joker. But it has happened. It has happened not to somebody but to me. And I'm glad that the people invented the Internet. I didn't think that it's possible to find my only love in the Internet. But I have found. Please, don't give me up. It will be a strong pain for me. I won't simply go through it. But I believe that you won't do it. Excuse me for this short letter. But today I have hardly found an opportunity to write even slightly. With all my love. (English) So vsey moey lyubov`yu. (Russia) Hi my heart and my soul Ken! How are you? I'm wonderful! Excuse me, that my letter will not be so long(smile). I have not enough time with official registration of papers. I spend all my lunch time for this purpose. To begin carry out our meeting I'll be engaged in the international documents, passage of a medical commission and other things to prepare the document of travel in your country. Last night after my job I went to the church. I put a candle for ours with you happiness. I think that God will help us. I'm thinking about you. I'm thinking about you constantly. At my job everybody are surprised why I'm so merry. They don't know that I'm corresponding with you. Do you believe in love? One love and forever till the end of life. I believe. I believe in love. There are no the barriers for love. The age and distance are not important. When the people love he doesn't notice it. Do you know the name of the highest mountain of America? So I will climb this mountain and will shout: Ken! I love you! And the mountains will answer me: love-you-love-you-love-you. I believe that the day will come and our hearts will join. And the people will envy our happiness. Because we will come ourselves to our happiness. Nothing will happen if you sit and do nothing. And I believe that we will build our happiness. We will build it of the small bricks as Egyptian the Pharaones built their pyramids. And we will build our pyramid. And we will call it the love pyramid of Ken and Anna. I love you, my prince Ken. I have written this letter and recalled. I have forgotten to send you my kiss. I'm kissing you my love. KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS. Your love forever Anna. Hi my love Ken! This letter is from the almost lucky lady. Why is ''almost''? As today after my work I went to visas firm. I was told that my visa was ready at last, (I send you it's SCAN). I was most happy the person at that time. But this firm not only makes visas, it also reserve tickets. I decided to use their service again. I was told that the flight to San Diego costed 801.70 USD. It was too expensive for me, and I asked them to find the cheapest variant. And they offered. It would be on the 27-Apr. and cost 750.50 USD. I wondered if it was possible to reserve a ticket and to pay for it a part of the money this time and the other part later. But they refused and I was in despair. I asked them to help me so long that tears came to my eyes. And they agreed. I wasted all my money, but it wasn't enough. So I went to pawnshop and pawned silver and gold embellishments which I had from my mom. I got 150 USD and that was enough for initial payment. I have paid in whole 400.50 USD. It was my last money. The number of the flight on which I resevered the ticket is 11:15 am Depart Moscow (SVO)Arrive San Diego (SAN) 10:44 pm. It is very difficult for me to tell you about it. But I have done everything I can. I paid visa. I have bought the ticket on a train up to Moscow. I paid a part of the ticket. But this money is not enough. I don't want to burden you. I want to reach you with my own money but unfortunately I have failed. Now I have to pay the remaining part. It is only 350 USD. I must pay this money before April 17, Otherwise I will lose my money. If you love me, if you trust me and if you want to see me soon, please, send the money for the ticket before April 17, tomorrow morning. I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other. Any union without trust is impossible if it is a union of wife and husband or a union of boy-friend and girl-friend or a union of business partners. I don't want to be hypocritical. That's why I want to tell you following: I do not think that you would like to give the love to the woman whom you don't trust. So I am. It's a first check for us. And much depends upon it, may be everything. We must trust each other. That's why I was the first who made first step. Step to you. Of course if you don't want you can not help me. It is bad but not fatal. I will lose my money. IT IS TOO BAD BUT NOT TOO FATAL . I speak so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when we are divided only with one step, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will be gone. I love you and I want to be with you and the word of honour, your help is necessary for me. I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger. It is much easier to go through difficulties and barrier together. I want to present you all my infinite love and fidelity. I did not want to ask you. I thought, that I can make all itself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without the help, and to rely only on myself. I very seldom address to somebody for the help, but now I ask you to help me. I have made a step forward. Make also you a step towards to me. I hope that has not offended you. I love you and I trust. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step. Tell me Ken, can you help me? If you have an opportunity please help me. I wonder how it is possible to do. There is an International Western Union (by the way, they have a website, called www.westernunion.com). You may send me money using Western Union according following data: Russia. BARNAUL. STROITELEI PROSPEKT, 4B ALFA BANK , 656002 For Anna Rak. To get the money, I should tell the employee of bank your full name, full address, exact amount and some confidential numbers (Money Transfer Control Number), which will be given to you, when you send the money. I love you very much! I think about you Ken every time. Forever yours Anna. |
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