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• Nadezhda Medvedeva (Nachalovo, Russia)
• Nadezhda Vladimirovna Medvedeva (Astrakhan, Russia)
• Natalia (Russia)

Nadezhda Medvedeva (Nachalovo, Russia)

I first received a letter from this woman in response to a Yahoo personal that had been placed a long time ago. She used the e-mail address Nadezhda@masdav.com. After many letters she said she had a ticket to come here and a visa and then on the day of the flight I got an e-mail that said she could not board the flight without $300. Unfortunately I sent the money through Western Union to the name Nadezhda Medvedeva and just two hours after it was picked up I found her on stop-scammers.com. She is already on your site under the name Tatyana Nikolaevna Kuzminyh (Shchekino, Russia). Her letters are also being used by other scammers you have listed and by scammers on other sites. Steve.

Letters:

Letter 1
Hi, my new friend,Steve! I am glad that you have answered me. I was not sure that you would write. Thank you that you found time for the answer. I think that you have many questions for me.I will try to tell you everything about me. I hope that you will tell me about yourself too. I don't know what to tell you about myself at the beginning, but I hope that you will understand me. OK I will try to begin. My name is Nadezhda. My friends call me Nadya. I wrote to you about it. You can call me as you want. I won't be offended. I am 29 years old. I was born on October 10 in 1974 year. My height is 5 feet 6 inches. My weight is 115 pounds. Probably you will be very much afflicted when you find out that I live not in your country. But I very much hope that it does not frighten you, because I the same lady like many other ladies living in the different countries. I the same person with heart and soul. I live in village Nachalovo. Nachalovo is situated near town Astrakhan, Russia. Astrakhan is in the south of Russia. Near to the Caspian sea. I began to get education in the secondary comprehensive school. After I finished it I entered the medical college. I finished it with excellent results and entered Medical University. At present I work in a small Dental polyclinic. I work as a dentist. We have a little collective, but very friendly. Steve, I shall have an opportunity to send you letters only from Monday till Friday, because I haven't got a computer at home. I use a computer at my work. On work I can use a computer almost freely. So it is more convenient for me to write you from my work. Though it too depends not from me. With a computer works another employee. I have not bad relations with her, but she can give me a computer only when she has a free time. For this reason I hope that you understand me. My new friend, answer my questions, if you can: 1. Do you like your job? 2. What is your favourite film? 3. What kind of music do you like? 4. Have you ever had a friend from the other country?(the friend on correspondence). I thank you for your answers beforehand. My new friend, you may not answer these questions if you don't want. In my next letter I shall necessarily answer other your questions. I will tell to you what music and what cinema I like. I send you my picture. I hope to you it is pleasant. I will waiting for your letter with impatience. Nadezhda.

Letter 2
Hi Steve! How your day? I hope you are glad to receive my letter because when I have received your letter I really was delighted. Many thanks. At onceI want to tell to you about my opportunities to write letters to you. I hadn't time to tell about it in my last letter. I write to you letters on my job because I have no a personal computer. The computer is in an accounting department. Lady who works with a computer will sometimes allow me to use a computer in my interests, but only when this lady has a free time. It depends not on me unfortunately. I work five days in a week - from Monday till Friday. It is the standard established in Russia. On this I shall not be capable to write to you and to receive your letters on Saturday and on Sunday. But sometimes I work on Saturday and even on Sunday. It is called - maintenance standby. In our polyclinic always works a doctor on duty who works on Saturday and on Sunday because the toothache hasn't schedules (smile). Sometimes I work as the doctor on duty. On this maybe I will can write to you letters even on Saturday or on Sunday. Maybe. Do you want to know how I will write to you my letters? I write to you letters during all my working day by small parts - in those short time intervals when the computer will not be occupied. And something else. Me have warned that our computer has dependent system of sending of mail. My letters will be sent only after service mail which is sent two times in day - at midday and after finish of the working day. Probable, my letter will be sent automatically after finish of the working day. Working day in our polyclinic comes to an end at 22.00, but my working day comes to an end at 17.00. I work in children's branch. If you want, I can tell to you about my work. Only tell. Oh! I promised you to tell what music I like. Now I have some free minutes and with pleasure will spend this time to tell to you about my interests. I like various music. All depends on mood. I like to listen classical music. I like Dunaevski And Chajkovsky. I like to listen simply instrumental music. Such music allows to relax and have a rest. Under such music I like to think. I like to listen to guitar masterpieces of Joe Satriani. I very much like group Dire Straits. I like Pink Floyd. They are not similar to anybody. It is great group. I like Madonna, Robbie Williams and George Michael and many others. In America many great musicians. I like many Russian musicians. For example Philip Kirkorov, Valeria or groups: Chaif, Splin. But you likely do not know them. I very much like cinema. In Russia create few good films. I like works of such directors as Tarkovsky, Konchalovsky, Mikhalkov. My favourite movies - Siberian Barber and Tired by the Sun. It's masterpieces of the Russian cinema. The American movies in Russia use huge popularity. The American movies is considered the greatest. I very much like the American movies and I like many American actors. For example: Gladiator, Brave Heart. Mel Gibson - good actor. I like films- The Sixth Sense, the Rainman, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, Gone with the Wind, Magnificent Seven, the Godfather, Groundhog day, The Scent of a Woman. My favourite actors - Bruce Willis, Al Pacino, Kevin Costner, Samuel L. Jackson, Julia Roberts, Tom Hanks, Demi Moore, Kevin Spacey. My hobby, if it's possible to tell so - the English language. I have loved English long ago, when I studied at school. In Russia the program of training necessarily includes foreign language, as a rule - English, German or French. I have entered in group of the English language and I am happy that I made it. I very much like your language. After school, I continued studying of English language at the university. I like this language. It is a very soft and easily-memorized language. I learn the English language easily. At present I attend courses of the English language. I study your language within 18 years. I want to know this language perfectly. I know that now I admit mistakes, but I hope you won't angry. What else to tell about me? I never was married and I haven't children. I am lonely and the reason of my loneliness not only in me. However, I do not know if it interestingly for you. I live honestly, and it brings pleasure to me. I am optimist and I like to smile, because a smile - mirror of soul. For happiness is not required many things. Likely the main thing that does not suffice me now is love. People without love cannot be happy. But when near there is a close person whom you love, life becomes fine irrespective of where you live and what you have. But the loneliness fills a life with sadness. But I do not want to speak about sadness anymore. I am glad that I have an opportunity to write to you and I am glad that you write to me. And at present it really causes a smile on my face. I should finish my letter. You have the big family? What do you look for in a soulmateSteve? If you do not want, you may do not answer my questions. I travelled in Russia, but never not travelled outside of my country. I very much want to visit your country. It so is interesting. I have no any relatives who live about me. But I have some girlfriends, only one best girlfriend. Her name Elena. We are friends 18 years. She the true friend and always helps me, as well as I help her. She has very kind heart. For the sake of our friendship we can return all what we have. I am very glad that I have such girlfriend. Such friends as she - the big rarity. I hope to receive your letter soon. Sincerely and with the best regards. Nadezhda.

Letter 3
Hi Steve! I am frankly glad that again I have a possibility to write you. Today I saw my mother in my dream and thought that I have to tell you about my mother, because when I say about her - I tell about my family. It is really so because I have never seen my grandfather and grandmother and I don't have brothers or sisters. I was the only one child in the family, and my family consisted of two people - my mother and I. I really feel great proud when I say about my mother because she was a very good woman. But together with this, every time the recollections about my mother cause tears and I can't keep them. My mother died when I was 16 years old. Three years before her death my mom has damage in road accident. She was standing in the street and she was knocked down by a car. Probably the driver was strongly drunk, because the witnesses said that the car moved by zigzag and suddenly appeared on pavement. As a result of collision my mum was paralysed. She spent three years in the wheelchair. I looked after her did all that was in my forces to make a life for which she was fated since this moment - easy and joyful. I spent little time with my friends and practically all my free time I spent near my mother. I was crazy happy when mother smiled, because she smiled very seldom. She was ashamed of her helplessness. Every time when I was going home after school I looked at the window and every time my mother met me. She was looking through the window and smiled. It happens always. She met me every day and never forgot. That's why I felt alarm at once when 12 years ago I looked at the window and didn't see my mother there. I understood that something is wrong. I rushed home with tears in my eyes. When I oped the door I understood that I stayed alone. As usual my mother was sitting in her chair with the smile. But she was dead. I remember how I stretched my arm and touched her pulse. It got dark in my eyes and my feet didn't obey me. I couldn't stand. I thought I would go mad. I have felt that I lose consciousness and lain on the floor. I sobed and couldn't quiet down. I couldn't imagine that I will live without mom. This was the person I lived for. All I did in my live I did for her. She was such a good mother. She taught me everything I can do in this life. My mother dreamt to bring me up as an honest and decent lady. I was the only child and mother gave me endless love. And I tried to do all to be worthy daughter, to be worthy her love. And I hope that I became such a lady as my mother wanted to see me. Now I appreciate the difficulties of that time in a different way. Difficulties train the character. I lived without help and support, I went through different difficulties about which I don't want to speak. But I have gone trough these difficulties and remember this I feel that everything I have done correctly. My mother always told me that one should look at difficulties with smile not mentioning that there is a shout of despair in the throat and there are tears in eyes. One should be strong and proud - as my mother was. Forgive me that I have told you about this so in detail. But I say about my mother seldom. But when I say about her I can't do it in couple words. I loved her very much and that's why I told you little things about her. Forgive me. I decided to share my recollections with you as with a friend, because I didn't speak about her with anybody for a long time. Forgive me that my letter is a sad, big and uninteresting. Simply when I begin to say about my mother I can't stop. But I promise not to write such letters anymore. Now I rent flat in Astrakhan. There is a one room, kitchen and bathroom. I understand that this is a little flat but I feel convenient in it. And it is not far from my work. It takes me 20 minutes to get to the policlinic. I often walk to my work when I am not late and the weather is good. Sometimes I get to the policlinic by bus. But I don't like it becauese the buses are always full and it is not convenient to stand there. Is the nationality of a person important to you if you are to care for them? I don't have such prejudices. the nationality is not important for me. I don't look at eyes, colour of the skin. And I don't think where a person was born. I want to find a man with kind heart. I love kindness and I hate a rage. For me the most important in a man - honesty and kindness. Without it is impossible to create the world of harmony and love. Roughness destroys love. I am ready to give all my love to a man who also is ready to give me his love. I think that in any relations the main thing - mutual respect and mutual understanding. I think it not so much. The rest is not important for me. Kindness. Honesty. Respect. I and my girlfriend Elena became girlfriends because we lived in the nearby houses and also together went to school. I have no pets, but I dream to have a dog. Only I cannot solve what dog I want. I equally love the big and small dogs. Likely my choice will stop on the big dog because I live alone. I am afraid to remain at home alone, because the crimes in Russia at the highest level. But probable with the big dog it will not be so fear. I really am the good cook and I like to cook. If I have arrived to America, I would like to see ocean, I never was to ocean, also I would like to visit Uolta Disney's world. I have to finish. Sincerely with best regards. Nadezhda.

Letter 4
Hi, Steve! Today I had so much work that I was afraid that I wouldn't have time to get your letter. And I have to say that this frightened me. But now I have found free time and very glad. Thank you for your kind letter. My last letter was sad. That's why today I will try not to write about sad things. Today my colleges have good mood because today all our collective goes to the circle. This is a Moscow Zoo which has come to Astrakhan for a week. This is great news because The Moscow Zoo Is the biggest zoo in the country. So everybody discuss only this news. Everybody wants to visit the ZOO because the tour will last only for several days. I like animals very much and I have never seen Moscow Zoo. I have never seen alive tigers and bears. Have you ever seen a tiger or a bear? The biggest animal I saw in my life is a horse. I like horses very much and think that these are the most beautiful animals in the planet. As matter of fact I have always dreamt to have some pets - a cat or a dog. But when I think that a little puppy will wait for me at home alone I feel pity. That's why I don't have pets. I always wait for weekends with impatience, because I get tired mentally and physically at the work. That's why weekends are the only possibility for me to rest and to get new forces. Weekends I spend differently. Sometimes I want simply to rest in my apartment. I like my apartment - little and cosy. On weekends I always clean the apartment properly. I like purity. And though I always try to keep my apartment clean, there is always something to do about the house on weekends. But when I want really to relax I listen to music or read books. I like to read books especially historical novels about ancient Russia or other countries. I don't like to read western or detectives, though lately I read stories about Sherlock Holmes with pleasure. I like to spend time with my friends. I have two best girl-friends. We are friends for 18 years. When we meet with girl-friends the air is filling with laughter. We like to walk and communicate, we go to movie and to the park. If you want I can tell you about my friends. I like to spend time in nature in the open air very much. In Russia camping is very popular. I adore to go to the forest and to live in a tent though now I have seldom such an opportunity. I like to look at night fire. I like to look at the stars very much. In August the sky is strewed with stars. It is incredible beautiful. I like to cook on the fire. There is no more wonderful when in the air the fragrances of forest, river and smoke mix together. I am romantic undoubtedly. I really like cooking. I know that I do it well, because I started cooking from childhood. My mother taught me many things including cooking. She said: "Lady who can cook well don't have disadvantages and demerits, because tasty food is a way to the man's heart. May be she is right. I like Russian dishes and my favourite dish is pancakes. I am not sure if you know such dish. This is a Russian national dish. The pancake is round thin bread. It is possible to eat it with a stuffing and without. For a stuffing we use meat forcemeat, cottage cheese or jam. It depends on what pancakes you want. What dishes do you prefer Steve? I don't know if I told you about my father. It is unpleasant for me but I have to tell you about it. I have never seen him. My mother told me that he had left us when I was very little. That's why I don't remember him. I have never asked my mother about him. And she didn't tell me. To tell the truth I don't want to know where he is and what he is now. I have a question for you. Are there many divorces in USA? In Russia it is a very frequent thing. Many men in Russia are alcoholics and that's why women can't live with them further. My mother didn't married anymore and that's why I don't have brother or sister. I very much love children. Children our future. They raise mood. If I will have children I will love them more than life. I never thought of how many children I want to have. Such decision is necessary accepting together with a man which becomes the father of these children. For me it is not important where to live, Russia, America or other country. It not the main thing. The main thing that there was a love. The main thing - together with the beloved. Nadezhda.

Letter 5
Hi, my dear friend Steve! I hope you not against if I say so. Thank you for your letter. From day to day I feel more necessity to get your letter. My mood has become better again when I have got your letter. I should say that when I have good mood my patients cry less (smile). So healthy smiles of our children now depend on your letters (smile again). I told you about my visiting Zoo and I want to tell you about it. My colleges and I were very surprised that there were so many different animals. But the most excitement was caused by the moment when we saw an elephant. This was a very big animal. Also we liked a tiger. It lied in the hutch and looked at us tenderly. but I know that this is a very strong and dangerous animal. I saw a camel. Oh, have you seen it? This is a very proud animal? I was impressed by his constant tranquility. We walked in the Zoo for long and got hot. Therefore we with the girlfriend ate much ice-cream, and drank cool Coca-cola. I very much love Coca-cola! After Zoo we have together come back home, we were cheerful and pleased. By the way, when I came to work today my mood was bad, because my girl-friend fell ill and now she is in the hospital. The saddest thing is that she has birthday today. She is 30 years old today. Unfortunately she will spend her birthday in the hospital. But have already talked with the doctor and I will be allowed to spend the evening in the her chamber. In the evening I will bake a cake, buy balloons and go to the hospital. I want very much that she have good mood on her birthday. This my best friend. By the way, she works with me in the polyclinic. As matter of fact I have only two real friends - Elena and Veronica. Elena is that lady who is in the hospital. Veronica has left to the north for three months. Her grandmother lives there. My friends are not married too. We are friends for 20 years already. Elena and I are like sisters. Elena and I like to walk. Usually we walk in the park. But also we like to spend time in Elena vegetable garden. She lives in an old wooden house. I don't know if you have seen such houses. This are the houses which were built before the second world war, in the fortieth years. These are very old houses which don't have bath and running water. So people have to take water outside in the well or in a pit. In modern world such conditions seem very terrible, but this is really so. We like to spend time in Elena vegetable garden. There she grows potato, tomatos and cucumbers not to buy them in the market, because in winter the prices of these products rise very high. Every winter Elena and I make a big Snowman by big snow balls. We make a carrot instead of nose and potatos instead of eyes. It is very funny. All neighbor's children come to see it. First time we made such a Snowman 16 years ago. Since that time we do every year. This is a tradition for us. We pour it with water to cover with ice. So it stands for the whole winter. I like Nachalovo. Many people in our village know each other. We have little buildings - maximum 4 floors. Veronica says that she wants to live in a big city. I don't know where it is better. Big city is a big traffic, fast rhythm of life, garlands of fires, lightning shop windows, high buildings, fountains, cinemas, parks, attractions, theatres. It is wonderful, of course I like it. But our village is a fresh air, a lot of trees and birds, silent and comfort no hubris and vanity inherent for big cities. We have a lot of small and large lakes and rivers. The places are very beautiful. If there were no criminal the place could be considered as a paradise. But alas, the criminal in small cities, as well as in the big cities is an integral part our life. Unfortunately criminal in Russia is situated on a very high level. But I don't want to tell about sad things. Many thanks for your pictures. Now I have representation on what it resembles there, where do you live. I have to finish my letter. I don't want but I have to. Today when I will come to Elena we will speak about you. She likes to ask about you and I like to tell her. I wanted to ask you what makes you happy Steve? Now I am happy to get your letters. I am also happy that I have friends. I think thank you are my friend too. Sincerely yours and with best wishes. Nadezhda.

Letter 6
Hi Steve! The day is wonderful today and the weather is good. The sun is shining all the day. To add to all this I have got your letter and my happiness doesn't have limits. And what about your weather? May be today after work I will go home by foot. I like to walk along the street and to breath fresh air, especially when the weather is warm. As a matter of fact I don't want to go home. It is very boring and lonely at home. Sometimes I don't mention it, but sometimes when I come home with good mood, I want to talk very much, to share thoughts with anybody, to have fun. But my flat is empty and I have to be in full solitude. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit down in an arm-chair and look at the window. And when the silence deafen me when I hear as My blood flows in my veins, I hear movement of my eyelashes, at that moment becomes unbearably and my heart compresses. I don't know how to struggle with it. I can listen to music or read a book. But in some moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning, to speak about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I don't want to cook meals only for myself. I want somebody to appreciate it. But enough about it. I told you that I visited Elena in hospital. I was there for two hours and Elena was very happy that I would spend her birthday with her. She told me that may be she wouldn't be in the hospital for long. She has not complicated inflammation of the throat. I brought Elene a chocolate cake, flowers and balloons. These balloons are one colour, blue - this is my favourite colour. And I hope that Elena like it too. And do you like blue colour? Elena and I spoke about you.I said that you are a very good man. Elena told me and wished good luck in my relations with you. I like usually Russian foodstuffs - pel'menis, soups, and pancakes. But I also love the Chinese foodstuffs and cuisine of the Russian Georgia. And I very much would like to try yours hamburger. I never was in the USA. I really do not know what to answer you about my travel to your country. I always dreamed to see your country. And I very much would like to meet you in the person. But right now it depends on a vacation. In Russia a vacation are appointed according to the schedule and makes by workers of accounts department. The schedule not flexible. We have not opportunity to take a vacation at any time. To us inform when we will have a vacation and to change it impossible. Many thanks for your pictures. I very much love them.Yes on June, 12 we have Independence Day in Russia. Sincerely, Nadezhda.

Letter 7
Hi Steve, again. I began writing the letter in the morning. Now it is 2 p.m. already. Can you imagine? I have just cured a little boy's teeth. I asked him: What do you dream about? He answered that he dreams to become a grownup because grownups don't have problems with teeth. It was so funny. I often remember childhood. I always dreamed to become a grown up as soon as possible. As every child I completely believed that grownups don't have problems at all. I dreamt in the childhood and I dream now. Of course, the world of dreams is an illusive world. We live in a real life, so we can't to sink into the world of dreams and phantasies for long. When a dream becomes obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Practically dreams do not always realize. It happens that you use all power, all aspiration to make the dream come true. But as much you try, not all in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does not come true, as though you did not try, dream ceases to be that star, which was for you lighthouse in ocean of the life, which illuminated your way. But anyway, I think that it is impossible to live without dreames and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. The dreams are those things that do us people that distinguishes us from the whole rest alive world. The dreams contribute variety in ordinary and grey life. The dreams force to think, analyse, choose and come to a conclusion. The Faith and Hope - an eternal satellites of our lifes. And regardless of what waits you at the end, joy of the victories and subordinated tops we remember better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. You agree with me?I am surprised that I write you all this. I have never had a person, with whom I could share my thoughts. But now I have found you, and I am very glad. Forgive me for my frankness. If I said something superfluous forgive me please. Do you like when your friends come to your home? I like very much when my friends come at my place. I like to cook and that's why I regale them different tasty dishes. Elena is a good cooker too and she often helps me. We often cook different dishes and regale each other. I also like to watch films with my friends at my place. It is a pity I don't have VHS or DVD players. But in Astrakhan we have 8 TV channels and sometimes go to movie. Our flats are very bad equiped for live. I even don't have telephone. In Astrakhan few families have home telephones. I know that it sounds wildly, but you have to understand that Russia began to develope several tears ago. We don't have telephone even in our little policlinic. People have to come beforehand to make an appointment with a doctor. In the last picture behind of me it is located government building, building for our deputies and mayor of city. I always help Elena with the vegetable garden, when necessary, today I shall water plants of tomatoes and cucumbers. I like to cook salad from fresh vegetables, from garden Elena. Last time we went camping the last summer. We went to coast of the river with tents and went for a drive on a boat. Sometimes in warm weather we to go to the beach Caspian sea. I like to swim. I very much love water and I like to swim away very far. Most my best memories remained from the city of Saint Petersburg. It is very beautiful city, it cannot be described words, it is necessary for seeing. Many thanks for your pictures. I will wait for your letter with impatience. Nadezhda.

Letter 8
Hi, Steve! I am very glad that you have written me. Thank you very much. I like your letters very much and wait for them every day. Today there was very strong downpour at night. The rain poured all the night long. In the morning when I go in the street I have seen that all footpaths and roads completely are covered by pools of water. But I like such weather. When our city is covered with a veil of rains, all people gloomy and sad. It's strangely, but weather so influenced on mood of people. People do not notice beauty which surrounded them. But only not I. In me such weather wakens the big energy and fine mood. I remember once upon a time I have suggested to Elena to walk, when in the street was a strong rain. But she is surprised spoke: "In the street a puddles, the rain and a wind. I am not a lunatic to walk in such weather. I shall better sit at home and to watch TV. " Then I have told to my girlfriend that it is necessary to be able to search for the positive moments in negative. And necessary to be able to enjoy what you have at present. I have described to her the rain so, how I see it. After she has listened to me, we at once have gone to walk. Elena is a doctor as me. We work together. I a dentist and she an assistant of the dentist. But Elena is not my assistant, she helps other dentist. Today I will go to her in hospital once again. I hope that soon Elena will be healthy and we will be happy to meet in our polyclinic. I like all seasons. I like autumn in Nachalovo. Yellow leaves, gold trees. It is so wonderful to walk in the park and to listen how leaves rustle under feet, and to feel in the air the smell of arriving winter. And clouds floating in the sky; and birds are departing to the warm grounds. And at night the sky begins to cry. The rain knocks on windows and roofs. A lightning illuminates for shares of second the empty streets. It is fine. In such weather it would be desirable to appear in a small room with a warm fireplace. Weak light and singing of a cricket. And if near there will be a beloved - it will be paradise. How you think Steve? What can be finer than romantic evening in rainy day? I at all do not know what season I like more. As well as all people, I wait for the summer in the winter, and in the summer I wait for the winter. But all the same Russian winter is delightful. All the world around is white. Only fur-trees with the green clothes heat a look. And falls of snow bewitches. Especially in the evening. Flows of light from a window, and on a background of black sky, small snowflakes are similar to stars. If during this moment for a long time you look at the sky - it seems that you flies through these wonderful snowflakes towards something unknown. I like spring in Nachalovo. The world as though is born again. Air is filled with freshness. All troubles and failures thawed together with snow. The sounds of the baby birds chirping for the first time. Summer is a fine mood, the desire to learn the world, to have a rest and enjoy life. I feel that I rambling on. Forgive me. Simply now I have romantic mood. I also dream of that someone like you strong would hold me in arms, would tenderly kiss me in a neck and whispered tender words of love in my ear. It will be the most remarkable moment. Elena also rents an apartment in Astrakhan, but her apartment is in the other area of city. To visit Elena, I am required drive by bus 20 minutes or 40-50 minutes to go on foot. The line with the Internet has only an exit in the Internet, but has no phone for conversations. This telephone line is connected to the Astrakhan center of telecommunication. Many thanks for the recipe of your pancakes, but I am not sure how many grammes of a flour contains 1 cup. And I never heard of pancakes made from potatoes.In Elena's garden we have already collected cucumbers and tomatoes. But it only the first vegetables, the majority of plants have only flowers. Mine full name Podrezova Nadezhda. I am not sure, that it is possible to trust Russian mail. Mail works for us not reliably. It is a lot of letters and parcels do not reach the addressee. Many sending, especially if they from other countries check and confiscate customs officers. I do not want, that your parcel has come into the hands of any fat old customs guy. For this reason I think, is not necessary to risk. Many thanks for your pictures. I very much love them. Sincerely, Nadezhda.

Letter 9
Hi my friend, Steve!!!! I am very glad that you have written. Many thanks. You have again raised my mood and have placed a happy smile on my face. By the way Steve, today I went to job being absolutely confident that you write to me today. Earlier I always went with an thought that you probably yet have not written, but today for the first time I went with an thought that your letter waits for me already. I went on the street and I smiled. I could not hide my smile. People which passed near to me looked back on me. Ladies in Russia smile rarely, because life is filled with different problems, cares, difficulties and obstacles. All this prevails over little fortunes which the lady has in her life. In Russia the lady stands on the same stair as the man already for a long time. She can do the same work as the man can. Very often In Russia the lady does the man's work - the heavy physical work. In the 19th century one Russian poet wrote about Russian woman: "Russian woman can enter in the burning house and she can stop frightened horse running towards her". The only thing she lacks is simple warm and caress, which she wants to receive from a man. This is the problem of Russian men. The Russian lady does everything for the man but doesn't get anything from him. All what she needs is at least a couple of tender words and gentle touching of his hands. Is it really so difficult? Is it really difficult to present your lady a romantic evening and a supper with candles? In Russia as a rule such gift give lady for a man, but not a man for lady. When a woman carry heavy bags in the street no man will help her, he will only turn his look away and go farther. That's why the Russian lady never feels happy at her heart. You say that I am beautiful. In Russia I am not considered like a beautiful lady. Russian men, practically all of them, usually treat to ladies disrespectfully. They consider that woman only have to work, to cook, to wash cloths and entertain the man when he wants. For the Russian man it is a usual thing to offend a woman. I like to cook and to wash cloths but sometimes I would like to receive simple caress, love and attention. I don't want to offend all the men. Of course there are good men in Russia, but there are few of them. Men frequently speak dirty words (not normative lexicon) when speak with lady and consider that in it there is nothing bad. I had boyfriend. We had good time together. He was kind. But he liked to drink. When he got drunk he became an absolutely other person. He talked with me with bad and dirty words. The time passed and his love to alcohol became a habit. He became another person - rude and evil. Has taken a great interest in beating me, frequently struck and knocked me by hands and the next day he smiled and talked with me as if nothing had happened. I began to be afraid of him and and I have left him. My soul was wounded very much. After this I couldn't make myself get acquainted with another man. Now I don't trust Russian men. I am afraid to give my love but get in lieu thereof the roughness. If you have disagreements with lady, you can apply roughness? But I don't want to finish the letter with not good words. So I will tell you about Elena. Soon she will recover. Elena feels good and sais hello to you. I hope that soon she will be at home and returns to the work. I feel lonely without her. We spent good time during the dinner in the policlinic canteen. The love does not submit to any laws and rules. Many consider that to understand true love, years are necessary. But so frequently people spend years to study each other, to understand that are created to each other, try to understand love it whether or not. Years will pass, life will pass, and people under ,,,,-stand that they were mistaken. But at the same time so frequently is enough one glance to understand that this person - destiny. I think and I am sure that the love does not happen identical. For love really there are no laws, barrier, rules and textbooks. I feel, that with each letter you become closer, we search for the same things in the person, but at the same time I should be sure in my feelings to you as will prompt me heart. In ours of the recipe we also use tablespoon and teaspoon measurements, therefore you can not worry about it. After reception of your letters children also are happy because I am happy. And they have healthy smiles. Many thanks for your pictures. I enjoyed viewing of your pictures. You travelled to beautiful places. Your Nadezhda.

Letter 10
Hi, Steve! How your mood? I hope that up to my letter your mood was fine, but after my letter your mood became superfine (smile) Likely I too self-confident. But I am happy again because I have again received your letter. I so waited this minute, when I can write to you. Yesterday I went to Elena and told her that you told her hello. I think you don't mind it? I hope that sometimes you will get aquainted. You will understand that friend can be more that brother or sister. Tomorrow difficult day waits for me. Tomorrow I again work in dental mobile car. I did not say it to you yet. But it happens only once a week. Dental mobile car - automobile which is more than passenger car, but is less than a lorry. Two years ago I and Elena have written to Ministry of Health the offer to allocate the automobile to make dental mobile car. At that time we with her have consisted in society of volunteer help weak and ailing people. As a rule it is old lonely people which are not capable to live without help of extraneous people. These people could not visit hospital because they could not go independently. We have suggested to come periodically to such people on this automobile with the necessary equipment to not carry these people in hospital. This offer was approved and now we already visit more than fifty settlements in our area. Unfortunately tomorrow I will go without Elena. On this it will be difficult days. In total in our area five such automobiles. We go in small villages and settlements where live people, which for the different reasons cannot go in city to cure a teeth. In our district a lot of such people. Now we help not only to such people, but also children living in children's orphanages. We have many orphanages, but this orphanages have no personal dental cabinet, on this every week Elena, I and ours colleague - dental surgeon, we go in various orphanages on dental mobile car. We became friends with all children and all children love us very much, because also we visit this orphanage in the days off to give help of various sort. The state allocates very few money for the maintenance and contents of orphanages. Buildings are very old. But children do not have anybody to help them and to give them financial support. That's why some people voluntary render the feasible help. We help to repair rooms. Many walls do not have even wall-paper and stucco. The floors and beds are very old. The conditions are terrible. The meal is awful. The children practically have no toys. When I look at all this there are tears in my eyes. My girlfriend and I help to do repair. We glue wall-paper and paint the windows. We bring children new toys. You cannot imagine how children are pleased when we come. And they are glad not only because they wait for new toys, they wait for us. They require kindness and caress very much. Again I write too in detail. Forgive me, please. I simply wanted to tell that I do not know if I can write to you tomorrow. Maybe I can write, but only some lines because I will not have time. Sometimes to us come junk e-mails, and some from them comprise viruses, on it informs a computer. Such letters at once will be removed to avoid infection of a computer. My recipe of pancakes: 0.4 liter milk, 150 grams of flour, 3 eggs chicken, a pinch salt, 1 tablespoon sugar, 1 tablespoon vegetable oil. Oh Steve! I should go. Sincerely and with the best regards. Your Nadezhda.

Letter 11
Hi my dear Steve! Today fine day. But only for one reason - I have received your letter. And all the rest become unimportant for me. Today I really have no opportunity to write much. Please forgive me. But I have enough time to tell to you that I thought of you and waited when the opportunity to write to you will appear. But I have time to tell the main thing. I do not know why, but today I have woken up earlier than usually. I could not fall asleep again. In the street already was sunlight. I sat near a window and began to look at street. Unexpectedly the small birdie sat down on a window and began to sing. She so beautifully sang. She looked at me and sang. The birdie at all was not afraid of me. I looked at this birdie and thought that you now somewhere there, far. I have thought that maybe you sleep and see me in your dream. And I have thought, if I was a birdie, I too would sit down to you on a window and began to sing my song. I have told to a birdie: " Fly off, my small birdie, and sing this song to my far but close friend Steve. Tell him that I think of him". And in this moment the the birdie flinch and fly off , as though she has heard my words. And I have thought, maybe this birdie really will fly to you and will sing her beautiful song. So if you Steve will see near to yourself a small birdie which beautifully sings, know that I have sent this song to you. Today I have happy news. Elena has recovered and now she already at home. Elena came to me at the work to see and please me. She said that soon she will work. I was happy that soon I will be able to see Elena more often. I told her that on Friday I worked at mobile car. Elena was upset that she didn't help me. But I said that we worked little, because l ittle people complained of teeths. On Friday we visitted only one village. In Russia it is a lot of orphanages because young and inexperienced women give birth to children and then understand, that have no means of subsistence, therefore throw children in the street or hand over in orphanages. Father refuses the child and his mother, therefore mother one is not capable to bring up the child. Frequently children appear in orphanages, because their parents alcoholics. Parents Elena live in Nachalovo and I frequently see them, when I come to Elena. Sometimes in warm weather we with Elena to go to the beach Caspian sea. Here we have much beaches to swim and sunbathing. I like to swim. I very much love water and I like to swim away very far. It is required approximately 2 hours to reach up to Caspian Sea. I and Elena we like to visit museums and picture gallery.But we not frequently visit them because we already all saw. We also have big stores, but they not so big as for you. Elena not so well knows English, but I try to help to improve her English. I would like to congratulate your mother with birthday, but unfortunately I not on you, therefore you can congratulate her and send the regards from me. The blue sky, the bright sun, warm rain, stars in the night sky, your letters make of me happy. I like to read your letters and to find out about you more. Your letters makes me happy and they it is valid make me smile. Forgive, but I should go. I want to send you my kiss if you do not object. Your Nadezhda.

Letter 12
Hi, my far, but dear friend Steve. Many thanks for your letter. It was the long-awaited letter. I am really madly glad to receive your letter. I am really glad that I have found you. I should tell to you that I have ocean of emotions and sensations which I had no in my heart before. And on this, my reason and my heart say me that I should answer by sincerity your constant sincerity. My heart and my reason says me that I should tell what I feel now because it is a part of our friendship and I should share it with you. I should tell that it was required all the day to write and think over this letter, because I wanted to say just the right things to you. I didn't want to offend or upset you in anyway, and it really bothered me that saying something wrong may do that. I normally speak directly from my heart, and I am right now, but sometimes, words must be carefully chosen. I feel somewhat lost when I have no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my soul, I feel contentment and joy when I think of you. I have never done this in my life, (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world), and I might have much to learn about how to proceed, but I am more than willing to learn whatever it takes to succeed if that is your desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends possible, which trust and share with each other everything that they feel. I do not know if my word and thoughts make sense to you, and I try very hard to put them in typed words that you will feel and understand. I believe in God, and I believe that I have been put through trials to prepare me for meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of my life loving, to better appreciate him, respect him and cherish the love, that he would give; only asking that I return the same. I hope that my words and letters are not boring to you, but they are much more than mere words, they are my thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you. I very much desire that you find it in your heart and are comfortable with sharing your personal feelings with me, I wish to know you on a more intimate level, I would like you to share your dreams, your hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with you on a level that goes way beyond mere friendship. Please do not think me foolish for thinking these things, I believe that in order for anything to succeed, you have to be honest, and that is what I am doing with you. Could you close your eyes for just a minute, and think and dream of what a life we could share, what it would be like, the fun of learning each other. I really believe that dreams do come true for people which dare to believe in dreams, because if they believe in them hard enough, dreams could become in reality. I guess that you are shocked that I feel this way, but here, where I was raised, the gift of true love from a man is something that is more similar to a Mirage or self-deception, rather than mutual feeling which two enamored people can give each other. I hope that I am not rambling on with my words. I have so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say, and I always feel that I have forgotten something important that I wanted to share with you. Steve, when I speak of you and I think of you, it does not matter for me what anyone else thinks. I want to tell that you are very beautiful for me. I mean, I find that you are not only attractive as a man, I also speak of the beauty that is within you, beauty of your internal world, and alas, this particular type of beauty is very special and rare. Most men have only appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty is. This, is that for me is the most important and significant in all limits of my character, my soul and my consciousness. Your words spoken to me with so much kindness and care, they express the beauty within you. I think that you are truly handsome, the essence of what beauty should be, and there is nothing that anyone could say to me that would compel to change my mind even a little bit. I want to reduce essence of all my letter only to one thought. I do not know if I could clearly explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want to tell that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy our friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough for simple friendship. It is that way which I feel. As always I hope that my letter finds you in good health and spirits, and I hope that every yours wish you have comes true one day. I will look forward to your reply as always with anticipation and impatience.... I hope that your reply is not of a harsh nature, and I look forward to its arrival. Villages it is small settlements in some tens houses, they are everywhere around of the big cities. It approximately on distance 10-20 miles. We visit villages every week and when we leave, we agree when to arrive next time. In our city is present 2 orphanages. In Russia there are many prisons, but as a rule they are far from cities that in case of runaway people would be not threatened with danger. Many thanks for your pictures. With tenderness, Nadezhda.

Letter 13
Hi my Steve! Thanks for your letter. My heart calms down when I receive your letter. Today Elena came to the work first day after disease. You don't believe we talked very long. As we did not seeeach other for the whole year. We got bored each other. But now we will meet more often and it pleases me. Elena sent you hello again. She is glad for me and you that our relations continue. I dream and think about you and about me. It so is surprising. I look in a window, there, where the sky and the ground merge in a single whole. I try to be lost in this imagined world, I try to weaken my sight, that all what I see became indistinct, dim. And then your image has emerged before my eyes. And I already see how you go along the street though I absolutely have no idea what your street look like. But I see you, I see as you smile, as at cinema in the slowed down action you come nearer to me, and your image becomes more and more precise. You speak something but I do not hear you. But I read on your lips, and my heart with fatal delight understands what you speak me. And these your words burn me from within. During the some moment I so sink in this world of illusions that I cease to understand where a reality. But the next second all breaks off and again before my eyes the grey sky, the white ground and people which at all do not suspect what occurs in my heart. It is so unusual to me, and in same time I feel so conveniently as if I know you the whole eternity. And I am sure that it not accidentally. And it is not important what waits for me in the nearest future, I know that I already have found remarkable, kind and good a man and a friend. And if I will see him, if I meet him and I can look in his eyes, I can tell to him everything what I cannot tell in letters, I will be madly happy. Now, today, this minute not important, where will bring me this way. I know that it is true road. I live not the future,- I live today, and exactly today I live by bright and happy life. I should finish the letter. In relations with lady are you a dominating part? I have in view of - you like more to be the leader and to make all decisions personally or you like to discuss questions with lady and to make a decision together? I think that it is good when the problems are solved together. Even if the problem is of one of the spouse. I think it is good when the spouses tell each other their problems. I think about mine mom and frequently I see her in dream. And you can share with me all your sad ideas about your father, from it becomes easy on soul. Tonight I shall go to house Elena whether to find out all in the order with her and I shall necessarily pass her hello from you. I think, that tomorrow or the day after tomorrow will Elena be returning to work. Many thanks for your pictures. I very much love them. Your Nadezhda.

Letter 14
Hi my Steve! How your mood? Any your mood today I want to try to make even better. This morning I didn't go to my job, because this morning I flew to my job. Today I came to my job beforehand. And I was first who came to the office. And I was happy all the day. My colleagues were surprised. They have asked me why I'm so happy. And I have simply answered that I have good mood. I have understood long ago but was afraid to admit to itself, that I have found to you feeling which did not feel before. I want to understand what in my heart. I want to feel your breath. I don't know, what's happened with me. Likely I can be named strange lady, but I have grown fond of your soul and heart. The rest is not important for me. For me the material world is not important. Only the world of calmness, fidelity and pure heart. It didn't happen to me before. The weather is sunny today. The sun brings joy. I'm glad that I have friend Steve, and Steve has me, Nadezhda. Tell me about your thoughts and dreams. I want to know all about you. Absolutely all!(smile). BUT! Yesterday my boss informed me that I will have a vacation approximately in 2 or 3 weeks. I have been pleased. But I did not expect that I will receive a vacation. But schedule constituted by accounts department not change. I have begun to cry, because it means that I cannot write to you. I cannot use a computer. Then I have found out that lady which gives me to use her computer, maybe will receive a vacation right after me, and if it will take place I can not use a computer two months. I have imagined that I should spend my vacation in my apartment, between four walls. I will sit without an opportunity to read your letters, I will sit in loneliness and to think of you. I will aimlessly wander on streets and every night fall asleep with tears on eyes. I waited my vacation the whole year and now I receive them but it do not bring to me pleasure. I have imagined that I should spend some months without you and in my heart has appeared awful emptiness. All world around became uninteresting for me. And I have told to myself: "NO! It not for me!" Last night I thought of us. About you and about me. About us together. I couldn't fall asleep. I thought what I can do to see you. I decided to spend this vacation with you. I thought what can I do to meet you. Simply to meet. It's all that I want now. I have a passport, but I don't a visa to your country. Today I have addressed visas agency. I wondered how much it will cost for me to make American visa. They told me that consideration of the application on reception of the visa costs 100 dollars. This sum does not come back even in that case if my application will not be approved. And for getting a visa is necessary to go to Moscow where there is an American consulate. They have told that I will must visit set of various departments, state and medical institutions both in Astrakhan, and in Moscow. It is necessary to wait for a long time the queue. It is a usual way of getting a visa and procedure of reception can be delayed for some weeks or even months. Besides if my application will not be approved, it will turn out that I squander money all for nothing. I said I can't wait so long. To me have told that is possible to avoid set of problems and to make all in faster terms if to use full package of service. Full package of service includes additional payments for a category of the visa, consular services, preparation for Interview with commission, interview. The full package of service costs 335 dollars, but the visas agency remove all problems and thus increases the chance of getting a visa without excessive delays. I asked how long time it will take to get a visa If to use a full package of service. They have answered that it will take about one week. Maybe 2 weeks if there will be some troubles. I have told that this variant satisfies me and I agree. I have asked, whether there will be troubles with visa, because there were the terrible terrorist actions in USA and the conflict with Iraq. I was answered that they will request information about me in the police. And if in the police they will be answered that I the law-abiding citizen, I will get the visa. I have never outraged the law. And I have never done anything unlawful. I will have preparation for interview. It will help me to receive the visa. And I really have registered the visa application with great belief and with great hope that you will be glad to meet me, with belief and with hope that you want to meet me. I really want to give you a gift - our meeting though I am not sure if you really want to meet me. Can you imagine that if everything will be well, in two weeks we can meet? If it would happen, would be it as a gift for you? Would be you happy if we could spend some days together? I understand that our relations are not long yet. Many years I ask myself one question: "Why everything depends on money?" I think that the money is not main thing in life. The main is when the people can and want to understand each other. I have a wild desire to meet you, to embrace you. I have some savings. I do not want to cause you a monetary outlay. I will make all myself. I know that you did not expect that I will tell all this. But it is possible to wait eternally. But in fact nobody knows that waits for us tomorrow. Maybe such opportunity will not be presented any more. I have opened to you my heart and soul. I speak what I feel. I am not confused by my feelings. I speak straight and openly. The loneliness has made me courageous. You can think that I hurry events. But I have found new feeling which never had. I am happy right now. I seem I has found what searched for long time. In Russia speak: "under a lying stone the water doesn't flow ". It mean that it is necessary to do a step onward to achieve something. I am afraid to lose an opportunity to communicate with you because I cannot eternally use office computer. But I will receive soon a vacation. During all my life I spent my vacation in my village or travelling across Russia. But now I can spend my vacation with my friend, with you! It is big happiness. I should use this opportunity. In my heart never was such confidence and feeling. And I am afraid to lose it. May be I hurry events, but I am afraid that all will be terminated, and then I will go mad. You my dear friend, and friends meet sometimes. I shall receive a vacation, it's my vacation and I want to spend it with my dear friend. I think it will be wonderful. I apologize, if have offended you. I hope, that you do not regard my words as impudence. I simply want to meet and spend some happy days with you. What will be after, I do not know. But all people meet. The distance does not frighten me. But without a meeting there can not be a continuation. I hope, that your feelings to me have not changed after that. But I want to see you to slightly becalm my tormented heart. Tell me please, can you meet me? Tell me please, you will be glad to meet me? You will be glad if I will arrive to you? I believe and I hope that I have not angered and have not offended you. I believe and I hope that you have feelings to me. I believe and I hope that you want to meet me. It can be outlined in advance by destiny. I sincerely hope that my letter has brought pleasure to you. And I sincerely hope that you want to meet me to spend some time together. And I sincerely hope that you would be happy to meet me. Would you be happy? Sometimes I come home and if I feel tired I fall asleep early, but I never find yourself awake in the middle of the night, I wake up only in the morning. I like to drink coffee, but I also drink tea, I have no favorite from these two, but most of all I like Coca-cola. Much tenderness from Nadezhda!!!

Letter 15
Hi my soul Steve! I with trembling heart waited your letter. Thank you for told all what you think. Thanks for your letter. You have written to me and it means that one more day I will be lived with good mood. I want to describe to you my day completely, since morning and till the night. At 6:30 rattle my alarm clock. I do not love my alarm clock. Because it so loudly rattle, that each time I jump as scalded. I rise with good mood because in dream I saw you. At 6:35 I go to a bathroom And I THINK OF YOU! I wash and I clean a teeth. At 6:45 I dress my sports suit, I go on street And I THINK OF YOU! I jog. I run in the mornings always when it is not cold to support myself in the good form. When in the street coldly, I sleep till 7:00. At 7:20 I cook a breakfast, as a rule strong tea or coffee and a sandwich. I drink tea and I THINK OF YOU! At 7:30 I go to work. Usually, if weather good, I go on foot And I THINK OF YOU! I like to go on foot since morning. Air clean and fresh. To job I come vigorous and cheerful. At 7:55 I go to a cabinet where works my girlfriend . As a rule she already on work at this time. If there is an opportunity I receive your letter. If the opportunity is not present I receive it later. At 8:00 I start to work And I THINK OF YOU! At 10:00 I go on street and I THINK OF YOU! I breathe fresh air of 10 minutes and come back to work. At 12:30 a dining break. I go home for a dinner And I THINK OF YOU! I reach up to a house by a trolley bus. At 13:00 I eat and at 13:10 I go again for work And I THINK OF YOU! I go by a bus but I abandon a trolley bus earlier, than it is necessary, to again take a walk on fresh air And TO THINK OF YOU! At 13:30 I again work And I THINK OF YOU! (though in my work is impossible be distracted and think about something another except for work)(smile) At 15:30 we with my employees do a small break and we drink tea for have a rest. I was not capable to drink tea because I THINK OF YOU! During the working day when there is an opportunity I answer your letter. At 17:00 I go home. I go on foot, slowly. I feel itself perfectly because I THINK OF YOU! At 17:40 I take a shower and I imagine that YOU WITH ME! (Smile) At 18:00 I have supper, alone, but I smile, because I imagine that YOU SIT OPPOSITE TO ME! At 19:00 I go for walk with my girlfriend (but it happens seldom). We walk in park. I THINK OF YOU! If I do not go for walk, I listen to music, I read the book, I watch TV, I knit, I make various homework And I THINK OF YOU! (of course not all simultaneously)(smile). At 23:00 I lie down to sleep. Usually I fall asleep very quickly because I THINK OF YOU! By the way, one more important detail. I hope, that my application for the visa will approve, therefore it is necessary for me to know the international airport nearest to you in which you can meet me. I hope you write to me it!!!! Only do not think that all my days pass so. It is an approximate variant. Every day passes on miscellaneous. To visit your country it is necessary to have the visa, without the visa I cannot arrive to you, it is obligatory. But is that peculiar to each my day: IT'S MY THOUGHTS OF YOU!!! Your and only your Nadezhda.

Letter 16
Hi my Steve! Thanks for your letter. My heart calms down when I receive your letter. Today I speculate about you and about me. It so is surprising. As a matter of fact we live on the different sides of our planet, but we are so similar. I never was even outside of my country. To travel outside the seas and oceans for me in general outside a reality. I cannot imagine it as though I not tried. And always, as likely many people Never seeing anything except for native house, I console myself by thought, that you have the same blue sky and the same life. Maybe life behind ocean is more cheerful and rich, paints are brighter and the summer is warmer. But also as here, people cry when they feel a pain, people suffer when lose close people, women in torments give birth to children. It is identical everywhere. You and I have the same cares and problems. Every day I try to imagine that occurs in your heart, do you worry or not, do you think of me or not, do you imagine us or not. I think I should change the subject. I do not want to be stodgy and tiresome. Steve. If we shall meet you would like fishing with me? Unexpected question? Simply I have written a first thought which came in my mind. I really like to fish. Women in your country like to fish? Earlier I fished frequently. Maybe for you it sounds unusually. But in Astrakhan many women like to fish. I not always used true fishing rod. I simply took the long stick and fastened fishing tackle with the float to a stick. Steve, what you shout when the fish seized a worm? Russian shout: "PECKS!!!! " It is my favourite moment in fishing. If a fish for a long time doesn't peck, I lose interest. I treat this occupation not so seriously like a men. If the fish long does not peck, I lose patience. But when pecks well, I have big passion. When I pull out from water a fish on a hook, I laugh and I shout with pleasure, as though me tickle. Are you ticklish? I very ticklish and if I am afflicted or have bad mood, titillation - the most reliable way to force me laugh loudly up to tears. I think you should know it though I should tell that if you will tickle me, I will resist, I will kick you and I will pinch you with wild laughter of course (smile). If your beloved lady would love rare flowers which are not sold in shop, you would search for these flowers to present to her or you would buy other flowers, beautiful too but not her favourite? I do not know who informed you (smile), but I really love chocolate and chocolate sweets, and ice-cream. These are my weak places. The way to my heart be cut by half if you have flowers, ice-cream and chocolate (smile). I have received all my pictures when someone had the camera during that moment. I have brought once my pictures on work and have made pictures in a computer use the scanner. But I have no own a camera. Astrakhan is in the friend time zone than Moscow, we ahead Moscow at 1 o'clock. When in Moscow 8 hours, in Astrakhan 9 hours. If I was a little girl I would like to live on a desert island with my beloved. How you think with whom? A smile. With you mine Steve. If to speak fairly I would wish to live in the free country, such as yours, to have own clinic and to be engaged in favourite business. I should finish. Your Nadezhda.

Letter 17
Hi my lion Steve! Probably you want to ask a question why I named you Lion? Now every day and every night you - in my apartment. You do not understand? OK I will explain. I have the big soft toy. It's the big lion with a long tail and with dense mane. This lion is so charming. It's only one toy I have and I love my lion very much. Elena always asked me:"What is his name?" I constantly thought what name to give to him, but could not to think up. Elena offered many names, but any name was not pleasant to me. I do not know why. But yesterday when I went to bed as usually I have put my lion near to me. I looked at him and think of you. And I have told - Good Night Steve! And at this moment I have understood that I have found the best name for my lion. This name - Steve! I was so glad. This name so combined with my lion! Now he always near to me. I look at him and I think of you. It so is amusing. Today I have told about it Elena. We laughed long time. She has told: " It is good that your toy - a lion. If your toy would be an ostrich or the elephant, hardly you would give to such toy the name Steve! " It was very cheerful. By the way, to write this letter I has put many efforts. Do you want to know why? Anyhow I will tell to you. Today I for the first time was late on job. I always wake up when my alarm clock calls. But today I did not hear an alarm clock, probably because in sleep I saw you Steve. I woke up with a smile on the face. But when I have looked at hours, I began to laugh very loudly, because I never slept so long time in the morning. Usually I wake up at 6:30. In job I must arrive in 8:00. But today I have woken up at 8:20. I was quickly dressed and had not breakfast at all, because my boss does not like when workers are late for work. I very much hurried up. I ran very quickly along the street, and when I already came nearer to my clinic, I have stumbled and have fallen. Can you imagine it? I lay in the middle of street like a starfish, people go near to me, but nobody has helped me to get up. And I have thought, that you Steve necessarily would help me. I strongly injured a knee and a hand. When I have come in job, limping and scraggly, Elena has asked me:"What's happened?" And I said:"I saw in the dream Steve!" It was so funny. I must tell that in my profession my hands always should be in an ideal condition. My hands should not shiver and feel a pain or any inconveniences because any my careless movement can cause many troubles for the patient, is especially if it is small children. Today I served boy and in my hand there was pain, but I never was mistaken and everything have made ideally. Now I feel pain in leg and in hand, but I write to you the letter and I smile. I am afraid that if I will dream of you frequently, I will be compelled to lie in hospital or in fracture clinic (smile). Steve, if some lady flirted with you but you were married, how would you respond to this lady? I think that I could work as the dentist in your country, but it is probably necessary to have some examination in your country and possible small study and practice. But as a whole I can, because methods of treatment and the equipment are the same. We use the same medicines and medical tools. I love all flowers. But my favorite flowers - lilies. I should finsh. Your Nadezhda.

Letter 18
Hi my Steve! I am so glad that I all the same have had an opportunity to write to you the letter. Today at 15 o'clock I filled cavities to the boy. During this moment all electric illumination suddenly was switched off. Completely in all a building have disconnected the electric power. Our pediatric cabinet practically has no natural illumination. On this our cabinet became very dark. The boy has been very much frightened, because I have prepared cavity but I have not finished to fill cavities. A boy was 13 years old, on this he did not cry. He simply said that he does not want to go home with the big hole in a tooth and again to go here tomorrow. I have decided to finish to fill cavities. I have addressed to a supply manager and he has brought the small flash-light which worked with battery. Elena has helped me. She held a flash-light and directed light in the boy's face. I have filled cavities. The boss has let off home all workers because was informed that there are problems with electric wires and the problem will be eliminated not soon. But I have decided to remain and wait. I thought that if a problem will be removed earlier, I can write to you the letter. And I was not mistaken. Several minutes ago an electricity was included again. By the way, Elena has remained to wait for result with me. She worried as well as I. When the repairman tried to correct malfunction, I every minute asked him: " When you will finish? Soon or not?" And when his nerves were on a limit, he has shouted: " If you will not shut up, small problem can turn to catastrophe (smile). I want to inform you, that my hand and a knee now is better. In Russia in such cases speak "Before wedding, all will wound heal". If I were married and a man flirted with I, I would tell him, that I am married on the most wonderful and strong man in the world. And I no want anybody others, except for mine Chris. That fish in a picture was a herring. When I were a little girl I lived in Nachalovo as I was born there. I like chocolate covered nuts and coconut. Also I love white chocolate from air inside. It refers to porous chocolate. You have it in America? I am glad that i could write.I send you my hot kisses. Elena sends you Big HELLO!With all tenderness. Nadezhda.

Letter 19
Hi my Steve! Thanks for your letter. I am so happy. Thoughts about you heats my heart. I so waited for this opportunity to write you to tell what happened today. But first - good news. Today is a very important day. I worry very much. Today I got a invitation on the conversation with the commission which deals with giving visas. It is the most important in the process of getting visa. The commission will make a final decision after the conversation - to give me visa or not. The conversation is very difficult but I am prepared. This is a difficult test which I have to pass. But I am ready. I want to meet you very much and my desire will help me. Where there is a will there is a way. Children from orphanages where I help already for several years, together with tutors have written letters for the commission to support of me, the petition and the characteristic. It will help me when the commission will make a decision. I am sure that all will be OK. As soon as I shall receive the visa, I shall inform to you airline I are flying on and the flight number and the date and time when I shall arrive to you. In Russia frequently happens, that suddenly disconnect electricity, it happens for the different reasons, for example breakage of wires, or a supply electricity to again constructed buildings. I want to go to a factory where make and sell chocolate. And I very much like surprises, I shall expect much surprises from you. I shall work in dental car again on this Saturday and probably I cannot write to you. Yes I like when a man is very affectionate, when he gives me many hugs and kisses. And I shall wait from you it when we meet at the airport. I must tell to you what happened today at night. Today there was an awful night. At night when I already slept, I have heard some gnash. Someone tried to open my door. I have heard that someone tries to open the lock in my door. I was frightened very much. I did not know what to do. I got up, but couldn't said any word. I was frightened very much and afraid to come near to door. Legs didn't obey me. Then this sound has disappeared, but one who was behind of door apparently started to try to break a door. The tree crackled and crunched. I have begun to cry and did not know what to do. I always considered myself like a courageous lady, but during that moment I was in confusion. The door already has almost opened, because the door's skeleton already was broken. But I stood like petrified and could not even shout. But then suddenly all has stopped. Probably one who tried to break my door was frightened by something and simply run away. I sat on a bed and have been frightened very much. I have included a lamp in a room. I knew that if someone will want to penetrate into my apartment, I cannot call somebody to the aid at all because I at all have no phone. The door in my apartment is very old and not strong. Neighbours never will go to help because in our region the robbery of apartments happens very much frequently. And not only when owners outside of a house but also when somebody in home. It is enough to open a door. We frequently hear by radio of the warning to not open a door to strangers. Basically criminals - young guys who only 16 - 18 years old. Many of them- addicts. They at all do not choose rich - whether apartment, or not rich. They take away everything, what is possible to sell. Even old clothes. They have special metal mounts which insert between a door and door's skeleton and break the door. I was frightened as never before. You do not represent, as it is terrible to live, when anybody beside is not present and nobody can protect. I have felt completely defenceless. I thought of you. I thought, that you now there, far, and at all do not know, how I am frightened. I lain in a bed with included lamp and thought of you. I could not fall asleep this night any more. It was bad night. But now everything is all right. I shall finish my letter. I send you all my tenderness Steve. I kiss you 1000 times. Your Nadezhda.

Letter 20
Hi my Steve! This letter will be small. Today we have quarantine on job. All cabinets of our polyclinic will be cleared with special chemical solution to destroy all microbes. This procedure happens every month. I cannot use a computer because right now in this cabinet will begin process of clearing . I shall be glad to have dream in your bed. You can sleep with me beside but only if not to will prevent to sleep me. I have seen you in my dreams, the smile, the confidence. You walk to me but yet you will not kiss me, you only look and smile,, you put your hand upon my face and look into my eyes, it is a loving feeling but yet you hold back, not knowing what to do. It is a wonderful feeling, one of contentment, one of security. My feeling is to say how I feel, to take you in my arms, to gently kiss you and to tell you all things will be ok, to feel the passion that is with in us, to share all things that is beautiful in life. I would be yours heart and soul if you wish it this way. In Russia also car drive on the right side of the road and looking forward the steering wheel is on the left. I sometimes am late on work and I come late than usually and then I lie down to sleep later than usually. I know a food called a waffle, I love it also. I never thought that the commission will ask such unusual questions. They asked about my sexual life, they asked about children, about work, about patriotism, about my attitude to America, about my conversance and awareness of events which happened in the world and in America, about my religion and belief. I have told about all my life in detail. I spoke about everything fairly how it is really. To me have told that my answers are unexpected and as a rule applicants do not answer such questions so directly and openly. They have not got used to hear such answers, but they said that to hear sincere and truthful answers is much more pleasant than words which come not from heart and reason. Children from the orphanages also have made the big impression and rendered the big influence on the commission. To me have told that I the first lady who have such support from children - orphans. Now I should wait the decision. Now I agree with_expression: "Expectation of death is worse than the death " I cannot concentrate on anything. They have told that the decision will be accepted tomorrow. I so worry. I so want that this small dream was come true. I simply want to see my lovely friend. I think the God will help me. I simply want to meet you Steve. I never did not so worry before. I have been told already to leave a cabinet. I will stop. Please forgive me and pray for me. I worry very much. Bye my love! I do not want to finish but I should. Your Nadezhda.

Letter 21
Hi, my Steve. There is a fine news to me and to you - I have received the visa. I send you it. I shall have also vacation on August 4. Today I went to the company which reserves airway tickets. I asked them how I can reach Philadelphia (PHL) and how much it costs. They answered me that the ticket costs $ 2841 USD. I asked them to find cheaper tickets, because this price is expensive for me. They answered that they had a cheaper ticket but the beginning of the flight 6-August-04. It costs $ 2196 USD. I asked them to reserve a ticket. But they refused, because they have a lot of clients at this time and they can't reserve my ticket without advance payment. At present the period of a vacation. Therefore many people use airflights. I spoke with them for a long time and asked to reserve the ticket for me without advance payment but they didn't agree. Then I wondered if it is possible to pay a part of the money now and the other part later. They didn't agree. I spoke with them for a long time and I managed to persuade them. They agreed. We agreed that I would pay a part of the price today and the other part later. I paid $ 1362 USD. But it was little for an initial payment. Then I went to the pawnshop and pawned my silver and gold embellishments for $ 416 USD. It was my last money. The number of the flight on which I reserved the ticket is Aeroflot-Russian International Airlines 229. The time of departure from Moscow is 10:45 am. The time of arrival in Philadelphia (PHL) is 7:01 pm. I shall arrive in Amsterdam (AMS), umber of the flight Northwest 37. I will change a plan in Boston (BOS), number of the flight US Airways 1205. After this I will fly to Philadelphia (PHL), to you Steve. It is very difficult for me to tell you about it. But I have done everything that I could. I paid visa. I paid a part of the ticket. But this money is not enough. I didn't want to burden you. I wanted to reach you with my own money but unfortunately I failed. Now I have to pay the remaining part. It is only $ 418 USD. I have to pay this money 29- July-04 morning. Otherwise I will lose my money and ornaments. If you need me, if you trust me and if you want to see me, please, send the money for the ticket before 29- July-04 morning. I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other. Any union without trust is impossible if it is a union of wife and husband or union of boy-friend and girl-friend or union of business partners. I don't want to be hypocritical. That's why I want to tell you following: I do not think that you would like to give the love to the woman whom you won't trust. Also I would not like to give my love to the man which I won't trust. It's a first check for us. And much depends upon it, may be everything. We must trust each other. That's why I was the first who made the first step. Step to you. Of course if you don't want, you can not help me. It is bad but not fatal. I will lose my money. IT IS BAD TOO BUT NOT FATAL TOO. I paid $ 335 USD for making visa, and I paid a part of the ticket- $ 1778 USD. It is big money for me, but I TOLD YOU ALREADY THAT MONEY IS NOT THE MAIN THING IN THE LIFE. But I trust you, and I know that YOU ARE A MAN OF HONOUR AND YOU ARE A GENTLEMAN. I don't want you top doubt in my honesty and that's why I am sending you the view of my visa. If you can help me I send you my coordinates. I give you necessary elements for sending money with the help of Money Gram: www.moneygram.com CENTRAL MUTUAL CREDIT BANK 10 PROSPEKT MOLODYOZHNIY ASTRAKHAN, RUSSIAN FEDERATION 414014 for Medvedeva Nadezhda. To get the money, I should tell to employee of bank your full name, full address, exact sum which I should receive and some confidential numbers (Money Transfer Control Number), which will give you, when you will send the money. Please forgive to me all my words. I speak so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when only one step is separated us, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will have no use. I need you and I want to be with you and the word of honor, your help is necessary for me. I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger. We will pass through difficulties and barrier, it is much easier to do it together. I want to present you all my infinite love and fidelity. I understand that it is the big money for you. I did not want to ask you. I thought that I can make all itself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without help, and to rely only on myself. I ask somebody for help very seldom, but now I ask you to help me. I have made a step forward. Make your step towards me. I hope that I have not offended you something. I need you and I trust you. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step between us. I am waiting for your reply. Kiss you. Your Nadezhda.

Letter 22
Hi my soul Steve. At me good news, I have ordered the ticket up to New York, which costs $ 1230 USD. The beginning of the flight 6-August-04. I have returned pawned my silver and gold embellishments. The number of the flight on which I reserved the ticket is Aerosvit Airlines 406. The time of departure from Moscow is 10:45 am. The time of arrival in New York (JFK) is 3:50 pm. I will change a plan in Kiev (KBP), number of the flight Aerosvit Airlines 131. And then I shall arrive in New York. Yesterday I began to knit a sweater for you. It will be my gift. I knit a sweater of Angora wool. Do you like a sweater? Do you like wear a sweater when in the street cool? But I am absolutely sure that you will like this sweater. I make it with such big love. I make it so studiously. It will be the best sweater in America. Color - is slightly darkest than white. Very beautiful color. I want to make on a forward part of a sweater an inscription - a name. First I wanted to make name - Nadezhda or Nadya. But now I want to make a name - Steve. And I do not know that you want. The name will be not big. You have 3 days to make the decision - what name you want to see on a breast. If you do not write to me, I will take the decision by itself, but I will not tell you. I will give you this sweater at the Airport. Do you like my idea? Soon we will be together and it will be wonderful. If we fated to become single whole, I believe that it will be. Our hearts are like two great oceans. They are vast and very deep yet calm an peaceful on the surface. Our feeling run very deep and they are very strong. Sometimes we get afraid we will be pulled under by the current. I dream that our two oceans will meet in a powerfull wave that will shake the very earth. And when all is done there will be one vast beautiful ocean, beautiful, powerful and forever...one heart, one ocean. Steve you have given me much more than you can realize. You are my prayer, my shelter from hopelessness and despair, only you can keep the spark in my soul burning bright. Your Nadezhda.

Letter 23
Hi my Steve! Today I have drawn the big calendar on a paper and have hung up this calendar on a wall in my room. Now I will cross out cells with numbers every day. I will look at this calendar and I will pleased that less and less days remains up to our meeting. I want to close eyes and to appear near to you, to feel and outlive all, about than you and i dream. I want to feel heat and tenderness of your hands and taste of your lips. I am ready to go with you though on edge of the Earth. I am ready to spend with you all days and night even in a tent, and for me it will be paradise. My girlfriend has insisted that I have allowed her to write some lines for you. She wants to make it without my help. Please do not judge her strictly. Her English is far from perfect. Hi! My name is the Elena. I am write to you by my hand and by my brain. If I am write badly that you can laugh. I am know your language bad. But Nadezhda is know your language well. I am is want to tell to you the thank you. Because I am never to saw the Nadezhda with so big the smile. She is laugh in the all day long. She is do not to want to work. Nadezhda is was never so is happy. If the boss see the Nadezhda in this condition he inflates his cheeks and he becomes to be red from rage, like the tomato. (inflate cheeks - it is to me has prompted the Nadezhda. I am did not to know how it is to write.) You is the good man. I hope you do tears at Nadezhda never. I wish the you and the Nadezhda have time well. Good-bye. Elena. It's me again, Nadezhda. I think you have remarkable idea concerning your coins. I shall have mine return flight on September, 4. I want to finish my letter by words: I do not know what will farther. But now you have made me happy lady. I for the first time have felt desired and necessary. Your love Nadezhda.

Letter 24
Hi Steve. I can't still believe and I am afraid to whammy but it seems to me that my dream is beginning to come true. That's why I say: Hello, my long-awaited Steve! Now I think all the nights that soon I will see you. I have already imagined for thousands times this meeting, but even now I can't describe what our meeting will be. I am sure in one thing that it will be one of the most beautiful days in my life. Now, when I think about it my heart begins beating strong in my breast and I feel a nice trembling in my body. I can't wait for the moment when I sit into the plane which will take me through thousands kilometres to you Steve, to my dream. Here in my town last time the days are so long and boring. But I think that nothing can spoil my mood, because I am far away from here in my thoughts, because all my dreams are about you Steve and about our meeting. I want to close my eyes and open them only at the moment when you meet me at the airport. I imagine how I go down on stairway and you are coming to me. And I want to rush to your embrace hear your voice, feel your smell and tell you in both languages what I will feel at this moment. I so really imagine all this. I am full with feeling that all this is happening now. And I feel for the first time that I am a beloved and desired. And I am ready to thaw in your embrace. I am thawing already now. You can not worry about the size of your sweater, he has ability to be stretched. You can continue to smoke when I there, but you should make it outside of a house, I do not like to breathe a smoke of cigarettes. Your love forever Nadezhda.

Letter 25
Hi, my prince. How was your day? My day was wonderful.I want to tell you my sleep-dream this night. It was something. It was greatful. Everything began in the morning(It already my dream). I didn't understand what day it was. But I think it was a weekend because you did not go to work. We woke up, took a shower, had breakfast and you offered to spend the day on nature. I didn't refuse your suggestion. We have gone to garage. But there were no automobiles in garage. There there were two big, beautiful, magnificent horses. They were so wonderful. You have sat on your horse and I sat on my. You said: Well, horse of cowboy Steve, let's go. I loved and said: Well, little horse of lady Nadezhda, let's catch up cowboy Steve. We went out of the garage and we shouted - LET'S GO!!!!!!!!!! I looked back and understood that I saw the house for the first time. It was a wonderful building. We were riding for a long time. We overtook each other and then we reached a forest. The trees greeted us making noise with leaves. The grass near the road bended down as if it greeted us. I was surprised. It seemed to me that we got into a magic forest. The road on which we rode led to the river. We stopped. You offered to walk. I agreed with you. We went along the river and saw a water-falls.The water was falling very beautifuly. But then I saw that there is a stone in the middle of the water-fall. We came nearer and notice that the stone looked like a heart. Then you said: Darling Nadezhda, even the nature greets you. Then I answered you: No, the nature greets you, Steve. We argued and laughed. We decided that the nature greeted both of us. We were happy. I stood and watched the water falling. Suddenly I felt that something laid on my shoulder. It was your hand. I turned to you. I wanted to kiss you very much. And only I prepared.............I heard some ringing. I woke up. It was my alarm-clock. It was time to get up. I was so disappointed. How is it? So pity that it was only a dream. But soon we will embody all our dreams in a reality. I like your idea concerning kisses instead of cigarettes, think that you will cease to smoke while I shall be with you because you will want set of kisses from me. The picture of me in bikini near a little hut, has been taken on a beach which is about a resort by the Caspian sea. Yours forever Nadezhda.

Letter 26
Hi my Steve! Today in the morning I ironed my dress. I was pensive about you, and have overlooked to remove an iron from a dress. I simply stood, looked out of the window, thought of you, I have ceased to ironing and have simply stopped a hand with an iron on a dress. You can imagine? I have burned my dress. Now in my dress the big hole. First I was upset and angry with myself. But afterwards I sat on a chair and have laughed. To me was so funny. It's a pity that you did not see me during this moment. I sat and laughed in the whole voice. It is really ridiculous. I laughed because i have understood, as far as strongly I love you. I constantly think of you. I am afraid, that if I soon will not see you my apartment will burn completely(smile). Now I will inform you very important information. I should arrive to Moscow beforehand to have enough time for arrival in the airport, registration of the ticket. Moscow is very big city and I should have enough time for this purpose. I will arrive to Moscow in the evening on August, 5. Very long and tiresome way. But I will think of us and it will help me. In Moscow I will stop in a waiting room. There I will spend night. I will write to you from Moscow. You do not imagine how I worry. I want to ask you prayed for me while I will be in road. Promise me. Nadezhda.

Letter 27
Hi my Steve! Right now I'm in Moscow and I write you this message from the Internet Cafe. And I have one trouble. I have paid money for my visa. My ticket which I have bought having borrowed money at friends. But it was insufficiently for our meeting. The men from Airport Service has told me, that I should have extra money (not less than 300 USD) to get to USA. I have answered, that I haven't extra money, and it was the truth: when I've left my home I've had American visa, air-ticket up to Philadelphia, the train-ticket and a little money (about 800 Russian rubles for a meal and other charges) They have explained me that extra money is necessary to convince the American Government, that I'm a decent girl, and when I will get on the American territory, I shall not become the tramp or the prostitute, and that I should have money for the hotel as any tourist. I have told them, that I really am tourist and I have shown them my tourist visa. But the man has smiled and has told me that he never saw tourists without money. These words have offended me very strongly. I have told them, that in Philadelphia. I will be met by my beloved man, and that I fly directly to him. He has demanded from me to show him at least 300 American Dollars. And I have answered, that I have no such money. I was confused. I for a long time swore at them. But in any case I should pay 300 USD. Otherwise I will not get aboard the plane. But you should not worry, because I will get this money back, when I arrive to Philadelphia. My love as soon as possible send me 300 USD www.westernunion.ru. PETROCOMMERCE BANK MIRA PROSPEKT, 180 MOSCOW , 129366.

Letter 28
Hi my Steve! I have received your letters. My name Medvedeva Nadezhda, you should send money for this name. Make it more likely. Also do not overlook to write your full name, full address, Money Transfer Control Number.I do not understand why you have not found me in the reservation, but I take off from Russia on flight Aerosvit Airlines 406 and I shall arrive in New York (JFK) is 3:50 pm.Probably me have have taken off from flight because I have no that money, that is they have have taken off me from reservation until I shall not show them 300 USD. My flight will be in 1 hour and 40 minutes.I wait for your answer. Your Nadezhda.

Letter 29
Hi my Steve! My love Steve, I have received your letters. I should afflict you, I still am in Moscow and you should not meet me at Airport New York (JFK) today on August, 6. I was directed to the airport, and I informed, that I no have 300 American Dollars, but I should fly necessarily on this flight as you will wait for me today in New York (JFK) . Then they informed, that they can transfer date of my flight on one of the following flights, and I have agreed. But I should show them, that I have 300 American Dollars, and that I am the tourist. Therefore you should go in your bank and to send me of money that I could show it the men from Airport Service and receive my new flight. Probably you receive your letter in the morning, and our banks will not work any more, and I can receive money tomorrow then I can inform you about new date of my flight. Podrezova it is mine surname which I have from my father, and Medvedeva it is mine surname mothers, but the visa and the passport are made out on surname Medvedeva. I do not want misunderstanding and that you confused, hope that now all of you will understand. But you should send money for a name Medvedeva Nadezhda. I never thought as far as it difficultly to meet with my beloved through half of way across the world. But we should struggle together with our difficulties and then we can overcome and find love and happiness. I shall wait for your letter. Kiss for you mine Steve. Your Nadezhda.

Letter 30
Hi my love Steve! I have received your letters, and your information. So now I should go urgently to the nearest site Western Union to receive money and to order my flight to you up to New York. I shall write to you later. Your Nadezhda.

Letter 31
Hi my dear Steve! Today I could not receive money when I have come to bank has find the big queue of people. Today Friday and many people go to bank to pay their accounts. I have addressed to the man from bank and have explained my situation, but he has told, that I cannot be ahead of that queue, and he cannot make anything. But he can help to receive to me of money tomorrow in the morning. I should come to bank earlier. Today I should rent a room in motel, it is good, that I have a little Russian rubles. Now I should finish, because Internet - cafe, whence I write to you is closing. I shall write to you tomorrow when I shall receive money, and I shall write to you the plan of my flight. Thanks for your anxiety on me. Your Nadezhda.

Nadezhda Vladimirovna Medvedeva (Astrakhan, Russia)

Initial contact through Yahoo with email address for me to respond to Nadezhda@masdov.com (can't respond through Yahoo and is abandoned after the initial contacts are made). Email nearly every day, 5 days per week, each with a new picture. Starts out plain and then gets more attractive (girl next door kind'a looks). Makes faints at several scams (best friend in hospital, phone, etc..) but always addresses any needs herself. Her letters are personalized form letters - placing your name strategically in letter (like a marketing mass mailing letter). One time just before the scam I found %TOFNAME where my name should have been. She answers questions and makes some comments on my letters but always very brief and at the beginning or end of the letter. She NEVER advances to LOVE - always just good friends. She pretends to be a Dentist working in the local Polyclinic. Has a best friend Elena. No phones any where in her village of Nachalavo just outside of Astrakhan (not sure this place exists). Her letters are quite charming and the character Nadezhda is well developed. She is told she will take vacation in 2-3 weeks and has decided she will spend this vacation with me. She details the expenses involved with getting the Visa and the processes she must go through to get one, (she doesn't quite get this process right), but then says she has the money saved and will ask me for no money. In two weeks she sends a copy of her (fake) Visa to prove she is coming, but...BAD NEWS! She is $418 short even after pawning all of her jewelry! But she has reserved the ticket (gives itinerary) but will loose all of her money if I do not send the money via Western Union by Saturday evening (it is Friday AM my time). She believes I cannot verify the validity of the Visa because the Moscow consulate is now closed until Sunday my time. A simple call to the State Dept in Washington DC (1-202-663-1225) can verify any US Visa within hours of it being issued. She wants money sent to Petrocommerce Bank, Admirala Nakhimova, 42, Astrakhan, 414018. Asks that I give her the Money Transfer Control Number, as well as my full name and full address. I screwed with her a while and she continued to try to get the money from me, extending the deadline, and falling out of character (emailing me on the weekend - she never had access to email on the weekends before). Garth

Letters:

There is a fine news to me and to you - I have received the visa. I send you it. I shall have also vacation on August 8. Today I went to the company which reserves airway tickets. I asked them how I can reach Portland (PDX) and how much it costs. They answered me that the ticket costs $ 2341 USD. I asked them to find cheaper tickets, because this price is expensive for me. They answered that they had a cheaper ticket but the beginning of the flight 10-August-04. It costs $1974 USD. I asked them to reserve a ticket. But they refused, because they have a lot of clients at this time and they can't reserve my ticket without advance payment. At present the period of a vacation. Therefore many people use airflights. I spoke with them for a long time and asked to reserve the ticket for me without advance payment but they didn't agree. Then I wondered if it is possible to pay a part of the money now and the other part later. They didn't agree. I spoke with them for a long time and I managed to persuade them. They agreed. We agreed that I would pay a part of the price today and the other part later. I paid $ 1242 USD. But it was little for an initial payment. Then I went to the pawnshop and pawned my silver and gold embellishments for $ 314 USD. It was my last money. The number of the flight on which I reserved the ticket is Aeroflot-Russian International Airlines 241. The time of departure from Moscow is 11:15 am. The time of arrival in Portland (PDX) is 7:10 pm. I shall arrive in London (LHR), umber of the flight bmi 4855. I will change a plan in Vancouver (YVR), number of the flight Alaska Airlines 2223. After this I will fly to Portland (PDX), to you Garth. It is very difficult for me to tell you about it. But I have done everything that I could. I paid visa. I paid a part of the ticket. But this money is not enough. I didn't want to burden you. I wanted to reach you with my own money but unfortunately I failed. Now I have to pay the remaining part. It is only $ 418 USD. I have to pay this money 31-July-04 evening. Otherwise I will lose my money and ornaments. If you need me, if you trust me and if you want to see me, please, send the money for the ticket before 31-July-04 evening. I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other. Any union without trust is impossible if it is a union of wife and husband or union of boy-friend and girl-friend or union of business partners. I don't want to be hypocritical. That's why I want to tell you following: I do not think that you would like to give the love to the woman whom you won't trust. Also I would not like to give my love to the man which I won't trust. It's a first check for us. And much depends upon it, may be everything. We must trust each other. That's why I was the first who made the first step. Step to you. Of course if you don't want, you can not help me. It is bad but not fatal. I will lose my money. IT IS BAD TOO BUT NOT FATAL TOO. I paid $ 335 USD for making visa, and I paid a part of the ticket- $ 1556 USD. It is big money for me, but I TOLD YOU ALREADY THAT MONEY IS NOT THE MAIN THING IN THE LIFE. But I trust you, and I know that YOU ARE A MAN OF HONOUR AND YOU ARE A GENTLEMAN. I don't want you top doubt in my honesty and that's why I am sending you the view of my visa. If you can help me I send you my coordinates. I give you necessary elements for sending money with the help of Western Union: PETROCOMMERCE BANK, ADMIRALA NAKHIMOVA, 42 ASTRAKHAN , 414018 for Medvedeva Nadezhda. To get the money, I should tell to employee of bank your full name, full address, exact sum which I should receive and some confidential numbers (Money Transfer Control Number), which will give you, when you will send the money. Please forgive to me all my words. I speak so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when only one step is separated us, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will have no use. I need you and I want to be with you and the word of honor, your help is necessary for me. I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger. We will pass through difficulties and barrier, it is much easier to do it together. I want to present you all my infinite love and fidelity. I understand that it is the big money for you. I did not want to ask you. I thought that I can make all itself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without help, and to rely only on myself. I ask somebody for help very seldom, but now I ask you to help me. I have made a step forward. Make your step towards me. I hope that I have not offended you something. I need you and I trust you. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step between us. I am waiting for your reply. Kiss you. Your Nadezhda.

Natalia (Russia)

Hello again, my name is Bob from Kentucky, a computer tech and I have found another girl on your list that wrote to me as well. Her name was Inna and the scam report was sent in to you by Marc D. from France...the e-mail address you have is: http://www.womenrussia.com/blackpage230.htm#Menshova. I just wanted to say that I have the same pictures and photos that you have and almost the same letters only she went by the name of Natalia from Russia...her address that she used with me was: nat100@alconwebdesign.com. I just wanted to report this as well so we will know...by the way, thanks Marc D. from France for reporting this girl. Sincerely Bob.

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